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Renewal

2010-07-21T17:54:00.004+08:00

This is really uncontrollably funny! Tried revamping my blog and went to www.blogskins.com but somehow, what was very easy in the past (when I was in JC) is super tedious now! Gosh...am I aging?! Why is the changing of blogskins so tricky now? Anyway, this didn't affect my mood to blog at all! ^_^

Firstly, I must really say that my sudden urge to blog arose when I was reading Xinying's blog. It just dawned upon me that I used to love blogging so much...as much as I love tweeting now. Though my blog is a non-living object, I do feel guilty of neglecting it. So...*Sayang Blog*.

Current Mode: THANKFUL

I have lately been thinking about everything that is going on in my life - the big and the little; and I just cannot help but to thank God for life itself. It is a privilege to be breathing and a bonus to be serving in His house, loving Him and being loved by Him.

Yes, I'm in the LOVE season. 2 weeks ago, I had one of the most amazing zone meetings in my life. Kelvin spoke a word over me and that literally ply open my ears, eyes, mouth and heart. (Thank You Kelvin!)

Matthew 9:17
Nor do they put new wine into old wineskins, or else the wineskins break, the wine is spilled, and the wineskins are ruined. But they put new wine into new wineskins, and both are preserved.

This is not a new verse to me but the revelation is piping hot from heaven. It is not unusual for me to dream big dreams or to do big things, but it's pretty challenging to dream new things. I know that I am in a season that God wants to give me a new vision, new heart, new capacity, new thinking, new everything. But like what Dr. Kim said, God dislikes waste and I know that unless I renew myself, I will waste all these great things that God has intended for me. I need a new wineskin to contain the new wine.

For 1 whole week, I thought and prayed about nothing but renewal - "God, change me. God, renew me." Honestly, I said these prayers without knowing how! Haha. I thought my life was too OK and I didn't know what to change or where to start! Thank God for God encounters. :) I come to realize that without God's intervention, my eyes will always be blinded. *Bam!* One night, One touch and everything opened!

It is impossible for God to fix something that is not broken.

Of course, I shall not blog about the details but for God to fix me, I know I must...

Never be complacent about what God has placed in my hands,
Always be faithful in being the best steward I know how,
Continue to hunger and thirst for God, etc.

The result of new wine in new wineskin is preservation and preservation is sustainability, longevity, eternity!

It is a process and I will do my best to pass every stage and level with flying colours.

Surprise Blog

2010-02-26T02:20:00.003+08:00

I am here to blog! Haha. Thank you so much to my faithful friends who have been constantly visiting this very long never update blog. Honestly, I didn't intend to blog tonight (as you can see from the time now that it is not really a blog-able time for Rae!) but I just feel random. ;p

This Sunday's gonna be Vision weekend! We always learned that "without a vision, people perish" and I realized this week that "with a vision, people really cherish". Haha. I know this may sound a little cheesy but it is really true. Not sure if you have ever observed - an individual who has a vision will fight for it with his/her life no matter the price and pain. To many, it may seem like insanity but to me and to God, this is tenacity! I remembered Jiahui used to love this word - tenacity - the ability to bounce back. People who made/make it big in life are not people who have never failed before but they are the ones who have failed countless time and still, you will see them around. They never leave and always bounce back. They are willing to lay down their lives and we all know that the process may really be torturous but the reward at the end of the day is always the sweetest and most worthy of all.

This week's really "amazing". I have to confess that it has been a long time since I felt my emotions and strength so taxed. Well, whenever things like this happen, I know the harvest is here. It is yet again a time for ploughing and eventually reaping and rest for a season. I love God! I love this cycle that He operates in - Plough > Growth > Rest > Plough > Growth > Rest > Plough > Growth > etc etc. Thank God He never stops!!! PS: I don't wanna serve a laid back stop halfway Master.

I am certain PK will share a powerful message this Vision weekend and I know for sure that the harvest is ours!

KEL - 200 is ours!

Dear Dear - 26 is yours!

Rae - 52 and 10,000 is mine!

W459 - 40 is ours!

Asher, Xinying & Jingying - VICTORY is yours!

Own it as if you have owned it!

Hiakz...hope my randomness managed to blog out something fruitful.

Special Notes
- Debbie, I BLOGGED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Jasmin, nope...I am trying my best not to abandon my blog.
- Chung, all the best! we are waiting for you!
- LightBulb, thanks for visiting! ...Can let me know who you are?
- Steph, thank you for visiting!
- Asher, nothing is impossible!
- Dear Dear, I Love You. <3

My Friday Night

2009-12-04T21:28:00.002+08:00

Yes, it is a Friday night and I am at home! Yes! AT HOME! Reason? My eye is infected again! But I still must thank God that the frequency of this infection is slowing down. If you have known me more than 2 years ago, I've eye infection at least once a month? :) So God is really good! He's healing me. Slowly but surely!

Well, since I'm at home, I've decided to make my time worth it. Hence, I made a decision to blog! Wahahaha.

On my 12th day of vege fast today and I'm 3 hours away to my 13th day! (YES!!!) 12 days have passed and 20 more days to go. Then it will be CHRISTMAS DAY! Wheeeeeeeeeeeee!* I'm smelling Christmas! Haha.

Anyway, the past 12 days are really adventurous. I went to Swensens and ate Tofu Salad for the first time. I ate cai fan and for the first time my whole plate is green and white. I ate yong tau fu and it's all white (i.e. tofu, golden mushrooms, dried mushrooms, steamed tao pok). I went Jack's place and while Edwin's beef plate is sizzling, I stuffed potato, fruits and vege salad into my mouth. I went to the Straits Kitchen buffett at Grand Hyatt and ate Carrot Cake and Rojak. I had mexican food but it's vegeterian. I ate subway and ordered Vege Delight. Hahahaha. I'm going green! These 32 days are really renouncing the flesh for me because I HATE VEGE! Ask Edwin, ask mummy ask anyone! I don't eat VEGE! *Yucks* But because of my gastric problem, I cannot go on full fast. Haha. But really, I just love God more with everyday I fast. I love W459 more with each passing day of fast too! So W459, you must be happy that I'm fasting! :)

Anyway, 2 Chr 7:14 means so much to me. I've been clinging on to this and I know new grounds are breaking! Time to smash! Whooots!

Alright...I shall go feed my soul for a little while. WATCH TV!

PS: Please pray for my recovery! I want my pretty eyes back!

You Are My All In All

2009-10-27T10:31:00.003+08:00

I'm so WOW-ed by my Val! Val, this is my favourite song leh!

Talking about knowing my heart~ ^_^

I love W459!

2009-10-25T22:59:00.007+08:00

I think CG was really awesome today! Hahaha. I'm loving W459 - the new version! Yeah ~ It may be man-ly but well ~ everyone is so ON! I guess that is the good thing about a CG with lots of men by choice and 5 pretty core female members. Hahaha. Jas, Chris, Munsum and Denise will agree with me. I'm sure we 5 will rise up to a level that can be more wild than any other ordinary female...errr...sounds kinda scary. Wahaha. ANYWAY, CG was fun! I love the game! Well, Jas was sick (get well soon!) but the last minute game we unanimously agreed to play, i.e. Popiah Chiak Chiak Chiak, was really FUN! What's more important is that the forfeit is more fun!!! I'm sure it doesn't feel normal to have glittery eye liner and super nice colour eye shadow on your faces but W459 did it anyway! This is what I call...BREAKING OUT FROM THE CONVENTIONAL. :)

True worshippers...WOW! Really, AMAZING! Guess what I'm most blessed about during CG today? It was Pinde's heart felt song to the Lord! Really! True worshippers coming before the Lord without agenda. Wow! It's the first time he sang and he really ushered in the presence of God. *Good Job Pinde!*

This is really an enjoyable week and I just want to declare that I LOVE JESUS! ^_^

Anyway, 6 more days to Hallow'n Land!!! Listen Up W459 & W524...here's your attire:

*Denim Jumpers or Denim Bottom (Shorts/Skirt)
*White top
*Purple/Black Striped Hand Gloves
***I know many of you don't want the socks so...You DONT HAVE TO WEAR HIGH SOCKS if you don't want.

Counting down! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~*

Power of the Word of God

2009-10-17T23:12:00.002+08:00

God really opened my eyes to the importance of the Word of God today. It is really the Sword of the Spirit when the devil starts to put thoughts into your mind.

Rae's advice: Never accept any responsibilities without the Word of God to cling on to.

I would mark today as one of the most turbulent days of my life. Rejection - Doubt - Faith Leaked - Apologetic - Remembrance - Warfare - Triumph! All within the short span of 5 hours. *Phew* Roller Coaster! I guess the devil is really a tricky one. He timed everything so quickly! Within a few minutes, I slipped into "momentary depression" (if there is such a term...haha). Thoughts of questioning my abilities and questioning my years of prayers rushed through my mind and honestly, I was on the verge of giving up. BUT GOD turned up. Wow, it was really the BUT GOD moment for me that turned the situation around.

Thank God for bringing to my remembrance a verse that Yuzhen gave me and that was my cornerstone verse ever since I became a CGL...

Jeremiah 50:4
..."The children of Israel shall come, They and the children of Judah together; With continual weeping they shall come, And seek the Lord their God."

At one point in time when I was about to give up on this ministry, Yuzhen encouraged me that the children will come...they will come! For near 2 years, I've been praying for the children to come and God moved! They really came and I know more are coming.

I was convicted by my own CG sermon last week! When God moves....
1) I choose to have Faith that even when things don't really turn out the exact way I want it to be, it is a work of God and I'll choose to trust in Him.
2) I choose to Focus even when thoughts of rejection come, I choose to hang on to all that He has spoken. It is all for the Kingdom of Heaven's sake.
3) I choose to remain Faithful. It's a new chapter, new beginning. Although things may got to start all over again, it is for His glory and I'll never get tired of radiating His glory!

When God moves, I move - No other agenda - Just an obedient and submissive child of God. :)

W327 CoOl...

2009-10-17T01:52:00.002+08:00

Hrmm...I had an eventful Friday par tor night with WinDear today! Hahaha...We went to Lakeside and help Rayvin to take his Cell Group! *Yeah!* It was really an experience! Haha. It is the first time I led a group of Indonesians, 100% Indonesians! Hahaha. *COOL!* and and Beatrice, Bernard and Willy cook very nice spaghetti! *Yummy* Hasn't had yummy CG refreshments for a long time...(*hint hint to my dear CG). Anyway, I wanna say that WinDear did a great job leading worship and preaching! He's so impressive. *Dear Dear Rocks!*

I'm so loving KEL zone! It's the most happening tribe! Wheeeeee~*

Hahhaa...my entry today is random without structure but never mind...what's important is I'm blogging! So...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YEELIANG!!!

*You gonna enjoy yourself so much later...I PROMISE!*

*Angelic Grinz*

I Love W459 - Then, Now & Future

2009-10-14T23:08:00.011+08:00

Yes all! The time has come! W459 has multiplied!!!

This is definitely one mega phase of my life (dear dear will say my excitement level for this is on par with what I'll feel on my wedding day) and I'm so thankful for God's goodness towards this CG. He multiplied my first CG! Wheeeee~*

Multiplication CG was really...erm...noisy...hahaha. I'm just so in awe of W459's highness and I'm pleased to announce that this highness will hereby spread to not one but 2 CGs! W459 and W524 and errr....W525...Hahahaha. Anyway, I just want to express my appreciation to all these lovely people that have played a part in the W459 journey!

Dear Pastor, thank you for your faith in W459!!! I'll always remember the times you encourage me when I share on my CG's growth. Your words are so motivating! Not forgetting the visions you have given to WYZ. Thanks for casting these visions and *ta-da!* here we are, bigger and stronger!

Dear Yuzhen, thank you for always being there for us! Your faith in us has really made us great! Personally, thanks for such an awesome group of people that you've given to me from W362/W220. They are just amazing. Thank you for giving me your best. I love you boss! You rock!

Dear Suzy, thank you for your loving encouragements while we were in TT1. You're such a gentle and loving leader and that inspired me greatly! We are where we are because of you!

Dearest Kelvin and Cynthia, Yeah! First CG to multiply in KEL zone! Wheeee~* what an honour! Thank you for loving W459 and embracing our hyperactiveness. I know the zone will grow, grow, grow! One man shall chase a thousand! *hOoGaShAgA!*

Dear WinDear, thank you for always being there for me whenever I share about the CG. You are an awesome boyfriend - always so accomodating to my CG's needs. I love you and W459 loves you (I'm so sure!)!

Finally, W459 (W524 and new W459 inclusive), THANK YOU!!! You guys are the best members any leader can ask for.

Dear Jieying, thanks for your boldness and faith in rising up and helping me in the CG. I know you gonna do great and mighty things with W524! Dearest Isaac, thanks for being with me since the beginning. You have really made my first CGL experience a super memorable one. Jiayou Z! Dear Jasmin, thanks for always looking out for what Rae needs. Details determine Destiny and you are going in the right direction! ;p Xinying, thanks for being such a fighter. Continue to be an inspiration to W524! Gouwei, it's such a joy watching you grow and haha...I've more days to come to watch you grow! It's amazing how God has transformed you over the years...from whatever to "finger poking" (err...can't really think of how to describe that action which you always do) and God is really good! Continue to be the revivalist in W459! Shirley, you are such an Esther. I'm really proud of your decision to come back and lead your sheep. Hold fast to this conviction and be a great helper to Jieying k? Dear Val, I'm sure you know how precious you are to me. :) Jesus loves you and Rae definitely loves you (including your uncontrollable screams) too! Embrace W524 and be a blessing to your CG members k? *HuGz*

To the rest in W524, thank you for loving me for the past 2 years (1 yr 10 mth?...) and making me feel so loved ALL THE TIME. I've written all that I want to say on your clappers and pat pat sticks and I really love you guys! Continue to love Jieying the way you love me! You guys are really the generation! The W524 Generation...1 2 3 WhoOsh!

To the rest in W459, what can I say...I LOVE YOU! Haha...I foresee that the days ahead are just gonna get noisier and considering the male population in this CG, I'm pretty sure it will be rowdier too. Hahaha...but Whatever! Let's put on the armor of God and do mighty things for God. Smashing Faith!

All glory to the most high God! Wheeeeeeeee~*

Refreshed :)

2009-10-09T17:21:00.002+08:00

Hey guys, if you noticed that my list of friends disappeared, please do not fret OK? I realized that due to my "long time no blog" syndrome, many of my friends' blogs have closed! Wahahaha. *Dotz...*

So So So...can you please do me a favour by giving me your blog address on my tag board so that I can re-update everyone's blog address? *Arigatou Gozaiimasu!*

Whooots ~* it's Friday! Tomorrow is Saturday and the day after is Sunday. Haha. I'm not acting cute but this weekend is just so significant although well, the surprise's kinda spoiled (Jasmin will know what I mean). ;p But to preserve it as much as I can, I shall keep quiet on this. Let's just hope they are not so addicted to that box. Wahahaha...

Growth of W459 => Stronger W459 + W524.

POWER HOUSE! Wheeeee~*

5th day MC

2009-08-07T09:58:00.004+08:00

It is amazing what 5 days of MC can do to you.

1) It makes you wake up automatically at 7.30am when the alarm clock never seems to as efficient as that in the past.
2) It makes you dread switching on the TV when you were longing to watch it whenever you are outside.
3) It makes you an outdoor person (all of a sudden), hoping to be squashed in some super crowded places, joining the human traffic.

Yes, it's my 5th day of MC and I survived!!! *Cheers!*

To all those who have showered me with so much concern, I'm OK now. The fever finally subsided after 4 days of Ups and Downs and I'm just left with a irritating cough. Keep praying OK?

I wanna thank my special list of angels who have been there for me this whole week.

Angel #1: My Baby!
Dearest baby, thank you for taking care of me since Sunday. Coming all the way down to Bedok 4 out of 6 days, just to take care of me. Baby had overnight SOT prayer meeting on Monday and I was so touched that he rushed down after tuition at City Hall for just 20 minutes to check on me and then rushed back to JW for prayer meeting. Awww ~* He's my STAR! Thank you dearest!

Angels #2: W459!
Thank you my precious all for your valuable SMSes. Jasmin, thanks for the cooling water. They really helped. :) Thanks for going the extra mile. Jieying, thanks for your prayer over the phone. I felt much better. :)

Angel #3: Yin Yin!
Thank you Yin Yin for calling me every now and then to see if I'm OK and teaching me to be socially responsible by not going back to the office when I'm not completely well. ;p I'm really touched by your phone call!

Angel #4: Sandra!
Good Friend! Thanks for standing in for me and picking up the SAVH project today. You're really awesome! Thanks for being such a great good friend!

I'm blessed to be placed in the midst of all these lovely people. *Grinz*

Happy 20th Birthday!

2009-07-30T21:45:00.002+08:00

It's exactly 3 more days to CHC's 20th birthday party and I'm so excited over it! :) I was at Nicole's 21st birthday party last Sunday and I saw how happy princess Nicole was. Trust me, she looked gorgeous! On a related note, I think the church will present itself dashingly smart this Sunday for its birthday party. To begin with, it grew from a capacity of 20 to more than 27,000. How magnificent?!

I'm really thankful for being a member of this family. The family that changes me (and is still changing...) and moulds me (and is still moulding...). I was in the office the other day when my boss showed me what Shirley posted on facebook, OUR SECONDARY SCHOOL PHOTO (greatest disaster of all time)!!! Haha. I looked...*beyond words can express*...*ROFL*. That was the photo we took when we were 15/16. Haha. Thankfully, I came to Christ when I was 15 and definitely, that's where transformation (physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually) took place. Anyway, appearances aside, more than the outward, my Abba Father has healed and captivated my entire heart. My ability to love others came from Him. How awesome! :)

Haha...if you can tell, I'm blogging in circles! Wahahahahahahha. Think I haven't blogged for too long. ;p Anyway, excited excited excited!

I read PK's devotion for 30 July and it's explainable how we get stronger and stronger after 20 years. Secret Recipe: "Trusting in God". That devotion really encouraged me. If God can do it for Job and so many others in my midst, I'm sure he can do it for me! Do read the devotion if you're interested. :) - http://www.konghee.com/www/2009/07/trusting-in-god/

Alrightiez ~ time to sign off...I love Jesus!

I need to blog...sooon....

2009-07-15T22:48:00.000+08:00

Haha...yes guys. I know I need to blog...sooooon....*inertia*. Let me find my inspiration k?

Meanwhile, know that I'm doing well and I'm still high in my spirit! Wheeee~*

Harvest

2009-04-18T10:18:00.002+08:00

I'm so excited! W459's gonna have our very own FOOD KNOCKOUT tomorrow! Was preparing the minutes for the meeting with the leaders tonight and I'm just so impressed by what the leaders in my CG can do. They are CREATIVE!

Dear God, thank You for these blessed souls you've placed in W459. They are a great blessing!

Thank you Jieying, Ang, Stanley, Xinying, Joshua, Gouwei, Faith, Shirley, Boon, Val, Pinde, Jasmin and Dylan! You guys have the ability to blow my mind! Whooots ~* (I miss you Isaac!)

Service in 5 hours time gonna be awesome too! RETENTION!

John 4:35
"...Behold, I say to you, lift up your eyes and look at the fields, for they are already white for harvest!"

I'm On Leave

2009-04-03T11:48:00.007+08:00

Blogging Location: City Harvest Church (Jurong West St. 91)

Hahaha. Yeah! I'm on leave today! *YES!* I'm a happy happy girl! *Screamz*

The morning thus far has been awesome. Woke up this morning at 5.20am to attend the JW morning prayer meeting and really, effort not wasted. The presence of God was great and the whole atmosphere is just uplifting.

Well, it did make me miss SOT for a while especially when so many on the floor seats are SOT students! Haha. Awww ~ I miss the days in SOT...full of the presence of the Holy Spirit. Everyday was a Holy Ghost time. =)

Nevertheless, today's atmosphere did provoke me a little. It made me want to pray so much more!!! It definitely feels different when you start off the day praying. Your tongue crafts your life and when you use your tongue to speak forth what is of the Spirit and confess it unto the Lord, whoots ~ your life is SET for success - SET TO WIN. :) *Thumbs Up!*

Lalalalala....

Waiting for my dear dear to end school in around 1 hour time. Dear Dear was really sweet yesterday. He came to surprise me after work! When you have a dear dear who is attending Bible School, has daily morning prayer meetings, concurrently studying in SIM and stays in Jurong East while you stay in Bedok, and yet come all the way down to surprise you, you are blessed! In short: I AM BLESSED!

Check out our yummy meal in MANHATTAN FISH MARKET.

Half-eaten seafood platter

My handsome dear dear enjoying his food

Still enjoying his food

The prawn is awesome

Haha...It was my first meal in Manhattan and I love it! Fresh Fresh Fresh!

Next Location: SIM (Crashing dear dear's lecture)

Next Next Location: Prawning!!! (First time in my life!)

7 MORE DAYS TO EASTER - THE FINAL SOLUTION

That's What Friends Are For

2009-04-01T22:46:00.005+08:00

I am going to blog about my best friend Lynn Choo Kailin today. Hahaha...Sounds like Primary School Composition yah? ;p

Question: Why does Lynn deserve an entry just for her alone?

Answer:
It is because she has been an awesome friend! Dearest Lynn, I really want to thank you for being such a great friend to me. Really! Thank you for always making me feel treasured and remembered. You really are an extraordinary girl! Despite being just a student, you are one of the most generous lady I've ever known. I am many times touched by your love to give out of the little that you have. You are such a giver! Thank you for always being there for me when I need you. Somehow, you will always know when I needed you to be around.

Some weeks ago, my dearest Lynn darling surprised me at my office with a super sweet encouraging gift!

Isn't she lovely? She never melts my heart. =) And just today, she gave me a call! Haha. darling, though I didn't get to meet you but your intentions are very much appreciated by me!

I'm blessed to have known you my precious friend. ^_^

John 15:13
Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one's life for his friends.

My First Ed Hardy!

2009-03-22T00:55:00.007+08:00

I'm serious when I say I will be more faithful in updating my blog!!! *Victorious Screamz* Hahaha.

Last Friday was one of my most memorable shopping nights ever with Dearie! Haha ~ We went down to Great World and it was so so enjoyable! Got a red dress from SKIN (*blessed!*) and my first Ed Hardy top!!! Wooots! And once again, my dearest was with me in one of the biggest shopping decision of my life! Thank you Dear Dear! Check out my nice nice top!

Yeah, I know you must be like "Wow-ing" at your computer. It's OK...I know it's gorgeous. (^_^) Credits to Dear Dear for choosing it. Well well, my dear dear has great taste! ;p

Of course, other than the great acquisitions in SKIN, we ventured into Body Shop, Dorothy Perkins, Giordano and even Watsons! Hahaha...are we good or what?! Shopping with Dear Dear is so fun!

Service today was awesome! Love Busters. Wow, what a term! I believe today's message is more than for married couples only. We Christians are Christians because we choose to love God wholeheartedly and love people fervently, and indeed, 1 Corinthians 13 portrays LOVE in its simplest definitons. To me, love is a DNA of a Christian. - Unselfish, Respectful and Peace loving. I believe there is no better time than now to put away your selfish demands and put on the selfless nature of God.

It is time to show the world what we are made of. =)

New Beginning

2009-03-19T21:33:00.004+08:00

Psst, saw that pink notebook in this entry? *Screamz!* Yeah, my very first own laptop using my own money! *Screamz* Haha. I'm so so proud of this achievement. :) Thank you Dear for sharing my joy with me and being there with me at that divine point of payment. *Grinz* And of course, thank you Lynn for inspiring me to buy a laptop! Haha. Yeah! We have the same laptop now! Hahaha. But of course, mine is PINK! Wheee~* Rae's first own earned laptop...

Well, new laptop = new beginning! Yeah ~ I'm gonna be more faithful to blogging and of course, more faithful to checking my mail and reading people's blogs. Haha. I'll keep myself updated! I will try... :)

Last week was an awesome week. It was the week where I received the same word from God repeatedly - Loving people and forsaking myself. I thank God for such a great word during this Easter season. The saturday session with Pastor Paul Scanlon was really the breakthrough point. I was convicted there and then that I cannot cry for souls and yet reject the very souls I cried for. *Duh...* Ironic isn't it? But it's really true!

Have you counted the number of times you prayed for there to be CG and school revival? - Countless

Have you also counted the number of times you "eeee"/"yucks" someone in school or within your proximity? - I believe, countless too.

I realize that loving people wholeheartedly is not as easy as it sounds. It takes alot of guts - Guts to go against the majority. *Puff* Hearing how Pastor Paul went against the majority, recalling how Pastor Kong and the pioneers of CHC started Church Without Walls, I am convicted that revival = going the narrow way = hard work = dying to self. It's really weird to proclaim how much you love Jesus when you cannot love the ones He loves. I made a personal commitment to love the others, including the unloveable and the ones that drain off every single ounce of energy off me. I'm not perfect but I'll try. :)

It's the Easter season ~ and if Jesus could do the ultimate, I as His disciple won't just be sitting around and wasting my life away. Join me? ;p

Happy Valentine's Day!

2009-02-14T09:24:00.003+08:00

It's Valentine's Day today! Wheee~*

Am in the midst of my preparation to my cousin's wedding (*Congratulations Wei Tian!*) and decided to blog and wish everyone of you a Happy Valentine's Day!

To my dearest W459, Leaders in WYZ and Friends:

When I need a friend, you are here with me.
When I need help, you are here with me.
When I need someone who care, you are here with me.
When I need someone who love, you are here with me.
When I need someone special, you also are here with me.
Thank you my lovely angels for making my life a colourful one.
You matter to me and I treasure you (all of YOU!).

Have for yourselves a nice and sweet Valentine's/Friendship Day ~

And before I end, dear dear, I'm excited about our first Valentine's Day! :)

恭喜发财吉祥如意

2009-01-26T23:34:00.003+08:00

恭喜恭喜!

What an enjoyable 初一! I realized today how precious it is when I only get to see my relatives once a year. Haha. Everyone looks so "fresh" to me. Honestly, I love visitations! Yep ~ Don't have to be those super happening talk non-stop kind but it's just an enjoyment hearing updates of what's going on in one another's life. Cool...

Of course, this year's special as it's my first Chinese New Year with dear...his family's really nice and warm. =) Haha. Dear's gonna enjoy my family tomorrow! *Winkz*

Anyway, it's a great CNY and I know this year will be really an awesome year for me (it's MY year! moo moo ~) and I believe it will be for you too!

Haha ~ my cousin bought this cow from Chinatown and I thought it's really cute!

Happy 牛 Year!

A Great Christmas 2008

2008-12-28T18:21:00.011+08:00

Hi there ~ thanks for all your prayers and concern! :) I'm feeling much better. Current status of my eye: Red but painless. Please continue to pray for me yah? I'm believing for full recovery! Amen!

Anyway, in just a blinking of an eye, 2008 is coming to an end in just 3 days time. Wow ~ This is a shooting star kind of year. Gone before you know it. I don't know about you but 2008 has been quite an eventful year. Well, there were some regrets...but still, God works in such a way whereby He never looks back. Remember Lot's Wife...I'm very certain that 2009 will be a very adventurous and awesome year for me and all around me. :) *Prayz*

CHRISTMAS - OPERATION*SAVE THE WORLD

This year's production has indeed been the best one yet by City Harvest. What an amazing plot! Amidst the joy and laughter in the production, the best message that was sent deep into my heart is "no matter how many times you thought you have screwed up matters and are beyond rescue, God is still there, faithfully planning and re-planning your route, to ensure that you get to the destiny He has in mind for you." What an awesome God I serve yeah? :) Christmas is really awesome. Of course, once again, W459 has shown me that nothing is impossible in this CG. A total of 23 friends came to join us in this festive season. *Hallelujah!*

A very special thanks to Xinying, Jasmin, Gouwei, Isaac, Shirley and Valerie. Thank you guys for standing in the gap for me. You guys are my dream team and it is really my honour serving all of you. You guys make me look good. :) Thanks!

Also, this Christmas is definitely a special Christmas because of my dearest * ~ WIN ~*. Thank you dear dear for all that you've done for me this Christmas. :) Yep, it's been one year. ;p One year ago, I was still secretly admiring him from afar...and well, one year later, I'm officially and blissfully spending my Christmas with him. :) Thank you dear dear.

Ppl, my dear dear is really sweet! Call me a show off...Haha...I dont care...*Bleahz*...Check out what Edwin did this Christmas...

1) He handmade a Jigsaw Puzzle for me! I love Mickey & Minnie!

2) He handcooked a Christmas yummy dinner for me! It's so so YUMMY!

3) He fulfilled my Christmas Day covenant with Nicole and Lynn with me!

I'm blessed! ~ :)

Of course, thanks for all the presents, cards and smses each of you have given to me. :) I'm so happy this Christmas. Everyone of you made a difference to my Christmas!

Updates...

2008-12-08T19:07:00.003+08:00

*Boo!* Rae's updating her blog!!! Hahaha...I hope this is breaking news to many. :) My deepest apologies for my lack of discipline in blogging. So sorry faithful readers!

Honestly, I've nothing to blog about but well ~ I do have many pictures to share! (^_^) Hope these will get my blogging engine started once again...

Here are long awaited photos which I'm supposed to post up loooooooong ago...Haha..For the viewing pleasures of my dear star throwers.

W459's most entertaining ~ Isaac & Daniel Ang ~

Christina and Wenxin ~ Chris, I'm proud of you! and Wenxin, come join us soon soon okie? :)

Well, since this is my dear dear's 2nd haven, here are our latest photos ~

Keppel Bay Rocks! I love you Baby ~ 3 months plus plus and I'm still loving you more every day.

Haha. I seriously hope my blog engine will get started. Somehow... ;p

And of course, since it's Rae's blog, how can there be no exciting countdown to Christmas?!?! 17 more days to Christmas!!!!!!! (I must lose 3 Kg by then!)

W459, let's go for 80 New Friends!!!

Update Update Update

2008-10-06T21:05:00.004+08:00

*My sincere apologies to the faithful readers of this blog!* Trust me, I miss blogging! Haha. But never got the time to sit down and blog on my thoughts.

Wow ~ Unknowingly, we’ve hit October. Less than 3 months to the end of the year. I don’t know if it’s just me but 2008 seems to be an accelerated year. Everything is moving at a very very quick pace. *Phew* Sometimes I’ll think back and realize that I’ve got not much time to think back! Jiayou Rae ~ You can’t stop now. Keep on keeping on!!!

Well, this is random but I wanna tell my CG that W459, I’m so proud of all of you!!! From October 2007 since we multiplied, we’ve grown by 10 for an average service! This wouldn’t have been possible without you guys being fun and loving and 100% unselfish and 101% motivated. You guys rock my world! *Haha…I told ya it’s random* (^_^)

Okie…Of course…How can I end this entry without my Love Story (Lynn, I’m BLOGGING!)

One of my greatest joy in 2008 is needless to say, the beginning of my romance with Mr. Edwin Ong ~ *Applauds*

oUr LoVe StOrY…

It all started with admiration. He was only a new CGL in the zone and it is hard not to notice this very same new CGL when he is Mr. Emerge + the shining leader in Inspire 2007 + the “jumping off chair” Rocker Praise & Worship Leader in Breakaway camp. Honestly, total admiration.

Thank God for the opportunity to sit near him during one of the zone meeting when he was smiling lesser than usual. All it took was one very sincere and very enthusiastic wave from me and we started talking more to each other. And not forgetting, the smelling of Christmas which he was so interested to master, me faithfully being Win’s Haven fan, the semi-getting-lost at Fort Canning during Tiffy’s & Zhipeng’s wedding, the many fellowship with dearest BeeLeng, etc…I got to know Win more and I must admit…He’s really charming!

Well, sometimes, it’s really the right person but the wrong time. Many hiccups happened in between our friendship but through these circumstances, we have matured and moved on to a higher level of friendship.

Admiration arises from Inspire 2007 and breakthrough in our friendship came in Inspire 2008. We were both the 2 ICs of the camp and yes ~ Dear at that time was so reluctant to work with me because we were still at the cold-warring + communication breakdown period, but thank God we managed to ice break, as usual, through his sincere cold jokes. (Guys, my dear’s jokes are really funny!) Thank God for the chance to work together because admiration for him began to grew while seeing him lead and prepare for every single session.

Things began to pick up since then.

Dear said he was very touched when I was such a supportive friend during his CG’s 1 year anniversary BBQ. Frankly, I really don’t think I did much. All I know is that growth in the kingdom means shame to the devil. So yeah ~ But thank God for this BBQ or we’ll never have the chance to be together. (^_^)

And thank God for the word in season by Pastor Kong and the 1 week of prayer. Just when I was faithfully seeking God for a breakthrough in my life and CG, He was doing another work in Dear’s prayer. Darling, I was so touched when you told me how you fasted and prayed for us. *Touched*

Of course, it was all final when Pastor Zhuang gave the green light. Haha. Thank you Pastor!

So yeps ~ that’s how we started. Haha.

Dear, since the day we got together, I’ve not stopped thanking God for your step of faith. Without that step, we will not be where we are today. You are really the best dear!

Thank you for your little acts of loving me and I’m really blessed.
Thank you for your sacrifices and they always warm my heart.
Thank you for your sharing and I’ve grown a lot by learning from you.

You’re the BEST!

Amazing Grace

2008-09-07T01:58:00.004+08:00

Amazing Grace (My Chains are Gone)

Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now I'm found
Was blind, but now I see

'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed

My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood
His mercy reigns
Unending love, Amazing grace

The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures
He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures

The earth shall soon dissolve like snow
The sun forbear to shine
But God, Who called me here below
Will be forever mine
Will be forever mine

This week's service is awesome. I'm tremendously blessed by the sermon that Pastor Tan preached. Simply...amazing. I enjoy it when the love of God flows through me continously in waves. *Totally soaked in His love* As Pastor was preaching, memories of the past flashed through my mind in episodes and I started to tear in the midst of his preaching. God's grace is just so amazing. I see how God's grace and love has been upon my life since the day I was formed...awesome.

Dear God, thank You for Your amazing grace. Without You, I will not be where I am today. It is by Your grace that now I am saved. It is by Your grace that I can return to Your embrace after I backslided. It is by Your grace that I can attend Bible School straight after graduation and work at where I am working now. It is by Your grace that I can lead a CG of star throwers. It is by Your grace God, that I can serve so many mighty people in my lives. It is by your grace that I can find such a wonderful boyfriend. Thank You Jesus and I will never cheapen Your grace. I will hold dear to it and treasure this amazing grace. Thank You Lord.

Yup, so God is really good. He's awesome! I love You Jesus! <3 As I've mentioned, it's really by God's grace that I've found a wonderful boyfriend and so I've something to tell my dearest dear ~

Happy 2 Weeks Anniversary 王子 ~

Thank You Win Dear ~

Thank you for the 2 weeks of love love and love
Thank you for the sweet sms-es that come in everytime when I'm in need of encouragement
Thank you for "i'm yours"
Thank you for sending me home without fail even when we live so far apart
Thank you for your prayers prayed with love
Thank you for loving me the way you are doing right now
& most importantly, thank you for making me the happiest woman around.

能和你牵手，我是幸福的... ^_^

Home Sweet Home

2008-08-28T12:40:00.007+08:00

Location: Home

Time: 12:42pm

Surprise! I'm home! Haha. Woke up this morning with a terrible headache and decided to work from home. PS: I've a new working laptop! Haha. And it's like half the size of the previous Dinosaur. Phew ~ Thank God.

Anyway, spent my morning replying to Spiritual Thermometers and I want to declare that I'm really very proud of Isaac, Michelle and Valerie for their Spiritual Thermometers! I'm blessed reading what they wrote to me. Thanks guys and let's work hard for the Kingdom of God!

Check out the latest & hottest website in Singapore: http://www.wyz.sg/ - WYZ's very own HOT website!

Haha...Nothing much to blog...Guess it's time to get back to work. Before I end, thank you all for the many many wishes and blessings. :) I love all of you!

Some photos of my xingfu-ism:

It was because of this that I'm so xingfu now. Thank God.

Dear came over to my house and passed me this! :) I love flowers! (Haha..W459 can testify to that)

我是幸福的

2008-08-25T00:11:00.003+08:00

I'm blessed. Very blessed. :)

24 August 2008 - the entry of a very special person into my life.

It's amazing how God used one incident last Christmas to draw us closer. Smelling Christmas really works! ;p
It's amazing how my trademark *waves* opens up opportunities for more conversations and getting to know each other better.
It's amazing how one wedding can cause us to go through quite a roller coaster ride.
It's amazing how everything was planned in such a way that we can find our answer at such a quick time.

It's amazing now that I can be with you. :) Thank you dear.

Yup, I'm happily and 幸福-ly attached to my dearest Win ~

Thank You Pastor, Yuzhen, Kel & Cynthia for your encouragements!
Thank You Bee, Lynn, Huimei...You gals play such an important role this!

*Bliss*

KuChing Mission Trip

2008-08-21T23:17:00.008+08:00

Hi All! I'm back from KUCHING! Rae's 2nd mission of her life! Wheee~* I enjoyed the trip so so much! Every single part of the trip...from the place of accomodation to CHC KuChing to the fellowship to the big land to the people and the Pastors and the church workers...EVERYTHING!

I really want to thank God for giving me this opportunity to go missions with Pastor. It's truly my privilege. My God always works in amazing ways.

A few weeks before KuChing, I was still telling Jon and Qiu, "I pray I'll not get to do Chorus Board. It's so not missionly. I wanna lay hands like what I see in Bee's blog!" Lo & Behold, just one day before we leave for KuChing, Karen called me and asked me to be in charge of Chorus Board for KuChing. *Faintz* Hahaha. I literally went "Oh...Orh...". Hahaha.

Of course, God's ways are always higher than my ways. When I was serving in the Chorus Board room, I experienced so much of God and so much of the humility of CHC KuChing. From the back of the audi, I got to see and observed many things which many would not have the chance to.

Right before my eyes...

The adults, majority of them ageing more than 40, lifting their hands, giving their all during Praise & Worship..True worshippers..in Spirit and in truth.

The youths, minority of the church, listening so attentively when Xinyi shared her testimony and sitting up straight to abosrb all that Pastor Zhuang was sharing. Those who hunger and thirst for righteousness shall be filled.

The elderly, bracing the rain that evening (it was pouring super heavily), turning up early for Prayer Meeting and weekend service. Run and not be weary...

The 15, 16 and 17 year old sound crew, trying to serve God to their best ability. They are not trained...no one to train them...but they tried all they can to ensure that the sound system is working to its best potential. Just like what the little boy with 5 loaves and 2 fish did when he gave his lunch to Jesus.

Pastor George praying with all that he has. He defined effective fervent prayer.

Pastor Kelvin holding the mic to sing for Praise & Worship, running to the sides to give instructions, and then to the sound room to help curb some sound hiccups. Humility...

I am tremendously blessed by the humility of the members of CHC KuChing and I am very very proud of all of them! I believe they will ... breakthrough ... a 1000. Amen.

Photo Time!

Singapore Mission Team ~ WHOOSH ~

Representatives of WYZ Tertiary Team 1! Haha. WYZ rocks!

Of course, there are many more photos but hee ~ I confess...I'm lazy to upload them. Hiakz ~

I Love Lynn Choo!

2008-08-06T23:48:00.002+08:00

Ok. I am in the best attempt to update my blog as regularly as possible because of my good friend Lynn Darling.

Anyway, 2 days of MC was good rest but at the same time, traumatising reality when I returned to work today.

Woke up on Monday with a super swollen, bulging and peeling pair of eyes. *BAD!* Nevertheless, I went to work (haha..yes...I went to work looking terrible) and of course, being in the nice working environment that I am in, I was chased home before the clock hits 12pm. Haha. So much for my stubborness.

Thank God for His healing. I told God since He can heal Val when Val prays, He can definitely heal me when I pray and Amen to that! My eye was less swollen on Tuesday morning and now I'm completely OK. Whoots ~ God is good!

Did the final part of my Root Canal treatment today and it was VERY painful! Trust the dentist to tell me that this will not be as painful as the previous 2 treatments. *他骗我!* It hurts so so so SO much!!!

Haha. But thank God for Lynn who waited for me! I was so touched! My darling came down to pei me! *Touched* Thank you Lynn! I love you Darling!

For Love From Love Part 3

2008-08-05T19:08:00.005+08:00

Dearest Nen Love

Guess you have already settled down in Aust. I miss you! Hold your breath and check out my Part 3 of Thank You(s) ok?

Thank You for your passion in Christ. I will always remember how active you were in Irene's discipleship classes and just seeing you will make me want to move more for God. Thank you.
Thank You for your little surprises of Bookmarks, Notes & Percy Pig Gummies! They always arrive at a time when I needed it most. Thank you.
Thank You for your warm hugs each time I see you. They encourage and MELT!
Thank You for being in WYZ! Your enthusiasm and presence is just so motivating! Thank you.

Most importantly, thank you for your listening ear and the sharing sessions! I'm waiting for you to come back Okie? We'll fellowship like never before!

Dear Nen Love, thank you for everything you've done. I'll be keeping you in my prayers and I know you will do well in Aust because you have Jesus in you. I know you will be safe because He will protect you. I know you will prosper because He will provide. I know you will return triumphant because He's your victory! So jiayou Nen! 加油，刘惠仪！

Love Loves Love! *HuGz*

Awesome Night

2008-07-16T00:54:00.003+08:00

Just came back from Zone Meeting and tonight is the most awesome meeting I've ever had so far. Father, thank You for the divine appointment. Thank You for bringing me back to the place of destiny. Wow ~ I really do not know how to begin this entry because I'm still so in awe of all that I've experienced and encountered today. The aimless rounds, crashes, dilemma, disappointments (or whatever you'll term it), that have been pulling me for the past 3 months have finally ended today with a victorious cry and triumphant encounter with my Lord tonight.

To be very honest, the past 4 months have been really challenging for me. It was almost like a Royal Rumbo where my ministry, work, family, relationship and finances came together and had a great showdown. Every aspect of it was waiting for me with a different challenge. It was so tiring and after the 1st month, everything just came to a standstill. I thought that was normal but honestly, that was not. How true it is, that any stagnant object has a greater tendency to roll backward than to push forward. Unknowingly, I was losing it.

I really want to thank God because despite my confusion, He was revealing things, slowly, abit at a time to me. It all began in WYZ's I am a Campus Revivalist session and it all began with this song:

我永远不会忘记
主你那丰富恩典
如今我在天父怀中
因为你舍下自己

你不看我的过去
只是完全接纳我
主你的爱何等伟大
我的心完全融化

我亲爱救主
我心何等感谢
你单单在意
我这爱你的心
我愿一生追求跟随我主
谦卑为你服事这世界

我亲爱救主我要一生敬拜
在我生命中你是唯一的爱
毫无保留我愿献上所有
何等渴慕能为你而活
耶稣我主

The first time I sang this song during this session, I was just absorbed into the songs. I started tearing but honestly, I didn't know why. Yes, this is a song about a Servant's Heart, but I know I wasn't tearing because of this. After that week, I've been humming to the song, with the tune of the song playing in my head almost everyday. Honestly, I really don't know why.

The second time I sang this song was during INSPIRE - STRONGER 2008. The same song, same language, but the revelation was different. The concept of humility began to seep into my heart. That day, God spoke to me from Luke 14:11. 你不看我的过去只是完全接纳我. I was convicted that God has called me not because of who I am and what I have done, but He has called me simply because of His grace and His unconditional acceptance for me. I was humbled. Very humbled.

STANDING IN AWE OF YOUR GRACE
SETTING MY FEET IN YOUR WAYS
ENTERING INTO YOUR PRESENCE
TO BEHOLD YOU FACE TO FACE

GOD OF ALL HEAVEN AND EARTH
HOLDING ME IN YOUR EMBRACE
UNFAILING LOVE THAT SURROUNDS ME
OH..GOD I STAND AMAZED

MY JESUS, MY LORD
YOU’RE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE
WHEREVER YOU GO
WANNA BE BY YOUR SIDE
NO LONGER I
BUT CHRIST LIVING IN ME
SERVING YOU FOR ALL ETERNITY

MY EYES SET ON YOU
IN THIS RACE THAT I RUN
NO LONGER MY WAYS
LET YOUR WILL BE DONE
MAKE ME A SERVANT
MY HEART'S EVER TRUE
CLINGING TO THE CROSS
I'LL FOLLOW YOU
I'LL FOLLOW YOU

The third time I sang this, it was already translated to English. Gorgeous. "No longer I but Christ living in me". I've decided that day, that I am dying to myself, crucifying myself to God and following Jesus.

By then, it would have been 2 months since God has been revealing things slowly...bit by bit through this song and through the sermons Pastor Kong preached in church. Still, I was recovering really slowly. The speed of recovery was really slow and I dreaded that.

Gradually, visions of Christ came to my mind whenever I sing this song. I see Christ dying for me, pierced hands, thorned head...and I am eternally greatful for His love. By then, I am determined to be a servant. Servanthood.

Although I was truly ministered by this song, somehow, I know God has not finished His message to me. Then the amazing thing came just last Saturday during service when Pastor collected the offering. When we were told to write our vision down, to write what we want to see ourselves doing or having in a few years time...our visions for ourselves that seem impossible. My initial intention was to write "Multiplication of W459" but I paused for a very long while. And before I knew it, I wrote "Lead a group of 300 by 25". Frankly, I was so hesitant to put in my offering amount and sealing my envelope because that really is impossible. God, how is that possible? Although I still gave my offering in the end with the content of the envelope unchanged, it felt unconvincing. I thought I would have wasted one chance to write a vision.

Thank God for today. Today, the kairos moment.

I really thank the Holy Spirit for urging and prompting me to rush for zone meeting today. It is really divine. I would not have heard and seen and experienced what I just did if I chose to be late for the meeting.

Thank God for His great ministry to me today. I am blessed and very very ministered. Just as we sang Hati Hamba in Chinese today, the presence of God saturated my entire being. I cried and I cried, so hard! It has been a long time, very long time, since I last wept so freely, totally liberated in the presence of God. Then the Holy Spirit spoke to me when we sang 你单单在意我这爱你的心. Child, right from the first day I called you, I was only looking at your heart. That pure heart that simply loves Me. Remember how you stood up against all objection, scoldings and mockings just to attend CG and Service every week? Remember how you tried your best to time yourself and extend your prayer time just to wait on my presence? Remember how you always said yes to serve despite the fact that you had very strict curfews to meet? Child, I called you because of your heart that loves Me.

I was totally washed by the love of God. Consumed in His presence. I realized that over the years, I've grown to be more professional. So professional that the first love I had for God seems to be fading...it seems to be limited by my professionalism. I was so convicted and so repentant I told God I will return to my First Love.

At the end of the meeting, Pastor gave another altar call to those who have a vision to go Full Time. That struck me so hard. Rae, now is the time. Remember your desire to go full time?This was like a wake up call to me. Yes! I wanted to go full time! It seemed so impossible because I am just so not perfect to be a full time church worker and yes, it will cost me alot. ALOT. Family objections, my job, my friends, etc. Didn't you stood against all these when you just came to know me? Another wave of the Holy Spirit swept through me.

Yes God, this is what it's all about. I lost my heart, a heart that simply loves You. A heart that is able to say yes to everything that You said. A heart that is determined to die for You. God, that heart is back and I am back on track. Thank You Jesus.

Friends, I'm going full time. More assured than ever. I do not know when will this happen but I know that once God calls, I will go.

I LOVE YOU JESUS. Awesome night.

Very Random

2008-07-10T06:37:00.003+08:00

Morning Guys! Haha. I am abou to leave house for work but I must blog this one-lined entry no matter what.

My CG blog is SO NICE!!! Come visit us at http://w459-starthrowers.blogspot.com/.

Thank you Xinying!

Victorious Sentosa

2008-07-05T10:37:00.005+08:00

Last Sunday was a breakthrough kind of fun in W459, W362 and W469! We went Sunny Sentosa!

Firstly, I wanna thank Isaac, Valerie, Shirley, Gouwei, Ronald, Celeste, Cheryl and Vernon who made the whole outreach so so SO fun! I'm very very proud of all of you! Even the new friends that came made comments like they never knew church people are so happening. Wow ~ You guys are a STAR!

Not forgetting my boss, Yuzhen, who came up with the idea and birth forth this turn out! Thank you Boss! You are amazing!

So how victorious and how wild did the CGs go? Check it out at http://w459-starthrowers.blogspot.com/.

It was victorious and I am happy! (^_^)

The Synergy of W459+W362+W469

And not forgetting the love of Rae...

W459 Rocks ~* Whoosh *~

Absolute Boyfriend

2008-07-04T23:23:00.004+08:00

I'm so in tears right now! Was watching the last episode of 絶対彼氏(Zettai Kareshi). Marvellous show!!! Got to read the comic a few years back and this is one of the rarest comic that could kept me interested until the very last volume. I love the manga!

Just a brief plot about the Manga:

Riiko Izawa has never had a boyfriend and she has been rejected by every boy she has ever had a crush on. When she returns a lost cell phone to an oddly dressed salesman, she mentions wanting a boyfriend so to thank her, he directs her to his company's website. When she visits the site, Riiko finds it's a site to create your own lover. Thinking its a game, she customizes and accidentally orders one.

The next day, her new lover arrives. Following the instruction manual, she kisses him to wake him up and configure him to be in love with only her. She names him "Night." Three days later, she is shocked to learn that she only had him for a free trial. The salesman, Gaku Namikiri, tells her that she must now pay 100,000,000 yen for Night, or they will waive the fee if she helps them to collect data about how women think and feel to help perfect future models.

Riiko must keep Night's true nature of not being human a secret from everyone around her. She also finds herself in a love triangle between Night and her childhood friend Soshi, who declares his love for her out of fear he will lose her. As the series progresses, Night begins to develop real human emotions, enabling him to truly love Riiko but also resulting in system malfunctions. When Riiko almost loses Night due to the malfunctions, she realizes that he is the one she really loves. She apologizes to Soshi, who moves to Spain with his brother.

As the series ends, Night begins to grow sleepier and sleepier. The problems developed by his exceeding his abilities eventually causes his machinery to stop working, resulting in his "death". Before he died, he wrote a letter to Soshi to tell him what was happening and asking him to take care of Riiko. Soshi gives Riiko time to grieve, then returns to Japan to be at her side again.

- The End for the Manga -

Haha. Totally unrealistic but it was nice. AND the drama serial is even better! The plot is slightly different but it rocks! Whoosh!

Introducing to you the cast that acted:

Riiko Izawa (played by Saki Abu); Night (played by Mokomichi Hayami) - My new found love! The "robot" in the box. Hahaha.; and Soshi Asamoto (played by Hiro Mizushima)

HAPPY!

Rae's Quick Update

2008-06-29T22:03:00.007+08:00

Yes, after much request, I'm finally here to blog. Wahaha. Sorry for the unfaithfulness. I've been really busy! (Please believe me!) Before I begin, thank you all who has been faithfully reading my blog. I'm so blessed with all of you!

A veyr brief summary on my Taipei trip >>> Taiwan was fun! F.U.N - FUN! Haha. I'm really proud of my sis and I...roaming around Taiwan all my ourselves. *Thumbs Up* Considering the fact that we are both not very street smart, we made it! *2 Thumbs Up!* Whoosh ~

Hrmm...Honestly, I've almost forgotten what happened in Taiwan. *Oopz* Other than the fact that the Hotel is nice and the TV shows are good...Errr...I can't remember the exact fantastic things that happened. Quite sad that I didn't get to see Wang Chuan Yi though. Booz ~*

By the way, I won't be posting up pix here. It's tough...TOO MANY! But there's one that I must post up and it's this!

Haha. I know this is Changi Airport. But I was so touched!

Thank you my dearest CG who came to send me off. Hahaha. The police at the custom took a look at my boarding pass and was like "Wah ~ Go Holiday your friend also come send you off ah? They so happening ah?" Hahahaha. Thank you guys. You guys make me shine!

I promise I'll blog soon!

First with my new Green Shades (Special thanks to Ed) picture and then with the Sentosa trip. 15 NFs! W459, you guys rock!!!!!!!

Some random photos taken last week. Featuring my stars...

Handsome Lit! Up and coming CG Guitarist ~ Whoosh!

Celeste Heng Kim Hong! She never fails to make me high! I LOVE HER!

And here comes the ultimate. My biggest STARS of all....

W459!

A fun & loving CG. 100% unselfish & 101% motivated.

Inspired

2008-06-12T15:56:00.003+08:00

Inspired 2008 - Stronger has come to an end yesterday's afternoon and what can I say other than awesome! This is truly a life changing camp for the leaders and for the members. I'm really proud of the Inspire Committee. It's the first time that many of us are working together and it's the first time that most of us are organising a camp for WYZ! This is just so amazing!

Dear God, thank You for placing such wonderful people in my life!

Dear Pastor, thank you for trusting in us and letting us plan this camp. It's really a great learning experience! Thanks for the many advice that you've given to us and always praying for us. I've grown because of you. Thank you!!!

Dear Kelvin (aka. papa), it's truly my privilege to be in your team. You're really a wonderful leader and teacher, teaching me so many things. Thank you for your patience and everlasting S-ness. You're an amazing Camp Commandant!

Dear Edwin, thank you for being such a ra-ra Assistant Camp Commandant. Your effort in raising up the new generation of Musos is tremendously appreciated! Thank you for your sacrifices in the midst of your exams and your testimony! It's amazing to hear how God changed your life. PS. Thanks for the chicken wing. (*Special thanks to Donny!*)

Dear Lynn Darling, thank you for staying up for endless nights with me! Haha. We love admin! *Ahem*...Amen? Haha. We've both truly emerged stronger in our admin power yah? Thank you for always looking out for the details and helping me. Thank you for standing in for me for the House while I'm away at work. I love you darling!

Dear Shannen Love, thank you for always agreeing to my last minute request. I love the scoreboard and I love you! Thank you for pia-ing so hard this camp! Haha. It's amazing how much effort you've put in. You're the best best BEST!

Dear Davis, thank you for standing in at the very last minute and agreeing to everything we requested for. You're awesome! Thanks for the word shared in Session 1!

Dear Jon, thank you for leading Jephthah! It's really a Chilli Padi House! Thank you for attending to the Chorus Board and planning for the night walk!

Dear Huimei, thank you my gung ho friend! You're just so gung ho! Haha. It's so fun working with you and you've made a difference to my life!

Dear mei mei de Gerry, thank you for being so detailed in all that you do! The games that you and mei planned are amazing! SO FUN! I feel so blessed by you!

Dear mei mei de Cindy, thank you for always reminding us on the things we have missed out. Without you, the camp wouldn't be complete!

Dear Bee Leng, powerful preacher! It's the first time I hear you preach and I must say that I'm really blown away! You're awesome! Jiayou Bee! Seeing you preach to the hundreds and thousands!

Dear Cynthia mummy, thank you for being so sweet all the time! You're the sweeeeeeeeeetest! I'm so blessed by your testimony and it really encourages me to see how God has changed your life. Thanks for all your words of encouragement through out the camp. I love you love you love you!

Dear Wendy Danielle, thank you foir the amazing blog and logo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so so SO proud of you! You're just so EFFICIENT! Seeing how you transformed the blog and logos is jaws dropping!!!! I see the leader in you! Jiayou dear!

Dear Xuemin, the up and coming Worship leader. Thank you for ushering in the presence of God. You're really a giant trapped in a small body! You are so STRONG!

Haha..that's a long thank You speech. Finally, wanna end off by thanking Shamgar!

Dear Shamgars...
Thank you for being such an amazing house! You guys made my camp complete!
Special thanks to Isaac, Peiyang, Emily and Lennard for leading the teams so well! Rise up guys! Aim to be the youngest and strongest CGLs around!
Thank you Jasmin, Valerie, Eileen and Claris for the initiatives and being such great ATLs!
Special thanks to the super hyper and never dying WeiSheng and Karuna for the whole morale of the house.
Thank you Xinying for your courage to share your testimony despite being such a young Christian. I'm proud of you!
Thank you to the whole of Shamgar! I love you guys! Let's work hard and I can see you bringing revival to your school!!!

Inspire 2008 has ended and this is only the beginning. Let's work so hard and I'm looking forward to hearing great testimonies of school revivals in a year's time! You can make a difference! It's the power of ONE church, ONE zone, ONE school, ONE person. (Haha..I'm still bias. Shamgar rocks!)

Alright ~ Gonna be off to pack for my Taiwan trip tomorrow! It's gonna be fun! Whoosh ~

Thank You Dionne!

2008-05-26T21:24:00.003+08:00

I'm so happy! I received a super nicey sweetie gift today from Dionne!

*Ta-Da!* My new toy to my Precious Moments collection. I'm so very happy! Many New Friends of mine don't know that I love Precious Moments! I don't think Dionne know too but she bought it for me! *High High High*

Anyway, Dionne's a really nice lady who has left a footprint in my life. Last Friday was her last day at work before she embarks on her new career at a company in Tuas. Haha. Far but well ~ She has a new car! LEXUS!!! *Whoosh~*

Thank you Dionne for teaching me so many things at work. I'll miss you Junkie buddy! I wonder if anyone will be junking with me in future. =( Haha. But I'm happy for you! *Cheers!~*

Happy Mother's Day!

2008-05-11T10:46:00.005+08:00

Happy Mother's Day to all wei da Mummy out there!

This year's Mother's Day is really a "turbulent" one for me. Bee will know why. :) Thanks Bee for your encouragements.

Anyway, I thank God for a wonderful Mummy. When I saw the drama and testimonials yesterday, the love of Mums was so strong. Yup, some Mummys are just not expressive and don't know how to express their love but deep down in their heart, they love their children. This is definitely true.

Here's a poem for a Wonderful Mother copied in our CG's songsheet this week:

God made a wonderful mother,

A mother who never grows old;

He made her smile of the sunshine,

And he molded her heart of pure gold;

In her eyes fair roses you see;

God made a wonderful mother,

And He gave that dear mother to me

- Pat O'Reilly

Thank You Jesus.

She will come next year. Amen.

Black & White Saturday

2008-05-01T04:25:00.004+08:00

Hi Yuping ~ As per your request ...

It was Do-Rae-Mi ...

And then...erm..attempted Rae Rae Rae....Hahaha.

Hey, please...we didn't plan before hand to be in black top and white skirt combination. It's just so FLOW!

My girls were not bad too. FLOW too! ...

Xinying and Jas and Me

Xinying and Jas and Me and Go! and Terry's hand

I just love these 2 Saints. Haha..Saints from St. Hilda's...

My Son My Son My Son!

Dearest Terry Son, Mummy's gonna miss you. Take care ok? Enjoy NDP!

Integrity

2008-05-01T03:24:00.004+08:00

My desktop is showing 3.28am ... Wow ~ I'm amazed by myself. It's been a long time since I last slept so late. Went for a SOT Team 17 outing this evening after work. Well ~ it was supposed to be a "good turnout" but the drop in actual from forecast was kind of drastic. Only Shan, Ivan, Zhenjun, Jon and I turned up. BUT it's OK! We had fun anyway! ;p Thank you Shan, Ivan, Zhenjun and Jon. It's a good evening out with you guys! (^_^)

Current Mode: *Burdened*

Spent some time browsing through everybody's blog a while ago and I just feel so burdened reading the entries of some of my loved ones.

Have they lost the focus?
Do they know what does it mean when they claimed that they are willing to "pay the price"?
Is God still number 1 in their lives?

It's amazing that tears trickled down my cheeks when I read their entries. They have lost it. Somehow.

INTEGRITY in merriam-webster is defined:
1 : firm adherence to a code of especially moral or artistic values : incorruptibility
2 : an unimpaired condition : soundness
3 : the quality or state of being complete or undivided : completeness

Pastor Phil wrote it in the Leadership Files that 'Integrity' comes from the word 'integrate', that is, to become united as a complete whole. That means our actions, thoughts and words should be in alignment, in unison.

What we say and what we do must agree. Failing this makes us hypocritical.

Our people will do what we do more than what we say. Are you given the responsibility over someone's well-being? If you are, PLEASE, watch what you do, what you say, what you think and even what you blog. Sheep being sheep, they will follow their shepherd. If you have the privilege to be a shepherd over someone else's life, please be the best shepherd you can. Lead them to life...not destruction. Watch your words, watch your action.

People accuse of excuse themselves on the actions of their leaders. They won't know better. These innocent lives recognized that you are the leader over their lives. As a fact that you are doing what you did, they will follow. PLEASE.

Our lives are the most powerful message we will ever preach. I am not a perfect person but I will watch my actions because I do not want to cause any that is watching me to stumble. I've paid the price. I've given up many things. Can you recognize that?

Ok. I hardly blog like this. Just this once in a blue moon experience for Rae.

I'm Back!

2008-04-21T23:36:00.002+08:00

*Ta-Da!* After MIA-ing for nearing a month, I'm back with more actions! *Blahz...* Haha. To my faithful readers, don't worry. Rae's as active as ever. Just that I've been super busily tied down with work. God is really good. He's been giving me many opportunities at work and I'm just so enjoying myself! My dearest CG is doing well too. We're gaining back the momentum! Just last week, CG and Service attendance are back on track! 22 and 23 respectively. *Whoosh!* Special thanks to the 4 faithful CGCs - Valerie, Michelle, Gouwei and Isaac. And of course all the faithful members of W459. *Applauds*

Hrmm...don't really know what to blog but I'm just so so excited. I've been dreaming about many many things lately. I mean serious dreaming! You know..the kind that you sleep and you dream and you wake up. Yah! That's the kind of dream I'm referring to. I've dreamt thus far about promotion, CGs (and I mean plural!) growing (psst..Shannen, your testimony played a part in kicking these dreams off), general growth, prosperity, relationships, etc. It's an exciting few days. Every morning I'll wake up physically exhausted because it felt like I've not slept but at the same time, my spirit man is jumping and awaiting the new giants to conquer for the day. Whoosh. Exciting!

Was really blessed by Dr. Kim on Sunday. When we worshipped at the end of the service, singing the song Dr. Kim wrote, Hallelujah, tears began to trickle down my cheeks. The Holy Spirit prompted me, "See, this is Christianity. Simple and childlike faith. That's all." What a revelation. I know this all along but Sunday was the day I see it for myself. Here's the Pastor who has helped to build the largest church in Asia (750,000 members!) and I have imagined her to be a super-woman-alike until I heard her preach. Simplicity and love and presence. Amazing.

Rae is a happy woman!

If he can do it, so can you!

2008-03-26T21:21:00.002+08:00

Hi Guys, check out the video below and be encouraged. If you think you are too young to be used by God, check out this link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vSlKKHoBXf4

Exodus 4:10-12 (New King James Version)
Then Moses said to the LORD, “O my Lord, I am not eloquent, neither before nor since You have spoken to Your servant; but I am slow of speech and slow of tongue.” So the LORD said to him, “Who has made man’s mouth? Or who makes the mute, the deaf, the seeing, or the blind? Have not I, the LORD? Now therefore, go, and I will be with your mouth and teach you what you shall say.”

Be encouraged Guys! God can use you!

Great Easter

2008-03-23T21:41:00.007+08:00

Easter 2008 was tremendous! The drama crew has once again did it! Impacted the crowd with the love of Jesus through their acting. I'm so proud to be in this church of excellence. *Grinz* Was extremely impacted by i-Ming @ Expo. The presence and love of God was so strong, I could not stop tearing. God, you are amazing. Thank You for Your forgiveness. I love You Jesus. Don't really know what to blog about. I just feel so loved by my Abba Father. =)

Photo Time

Check out my post-blood-donation blue black. Hohoho ~

Jeremiahs are everywhere!~

W459 at Banquet after Easter Day 1. PS. This was Ivan's THIRD-try shot. Haha.

W362 at Banquet after Easter Day 1. PS. Rae's 1st shot. Steady ~~~~

When small (Celeste) meets smaller (Dylan).

My two little ones ~ WeiJin & Dylan!

Rachel and Kim.

Me and Rachel.

Artistic shot from Jasmin on Gouwei.

Artistic shot #2 by Jasmin.

Hair Standing experience for Quan Sheng

Dylan's little ones - Denise and Daynna!

I love them!

It's Easter!

2008-03-21T09:46:00.007+08:00

*Hallelujah!* I am so so excited that I cannot sleep! Haha. It's a public holiday today and I woke up at 0830! *Amazing!* Guess what's the first thing that God spoke to me this morning? -- "I died so you can LIVE." Amen! Thank You Lord! You indeed are a faithful and true God I won't know what state will I be in if not because of You. *Praise the Lord!*

So yes, today's the day - Good Friday! Jesus went through the most excruciating pain in world history 2000 over years ago and went through all the shame, bearing our sin, and He was crucified this very day on the cross of Calvary. Seriously, He didn't have to do it but He still did. It's definitely not for show because even to say that the pain is excruciating is an understatement. Who in your life will ever be willing to die on the cross for you? Who will have the thick rusty nail being knocked through their hands just for you? Perhaps you might have some super loyal friends that might but I have a faithful Friend who already did it, even before I've arrived on this earth. Thank You Jesus.

Of course, 3 days later He resurrected! I serve a true and living God! *HALLELUJAH!* Thank You Lord!

Friends, if you have no plans this weekend, do join us for our Easter drama production at Expo Hall 1 or Jurong West St 91. More than the assurance of a world class drama, you are going to experience the love of Christ tremendously in a great way.

i-Ming @ Expo Hall 1

21 March 2008 - 4.00pm

21 March 2008 - 7.00pm

22 March 2008 - 3.00pm

22 March 2008 - 5.30pm

23 March 2008 - 10.00am

23 March 2008 - 12.30pm

Second Chances @ Jurong West St 91

21 March 2008 - 4.30pm

21 March 2008 - 7.00pm

22 March 2008 - 3.30pm

22 March 2008 - 6.00pm

23 March 2008 - 10.00am (Chinese Church Service)

23 March 2008 - 12.30pm

Ring me up if you're interested yeah?

Jesus loves you!

Happy Easter!

That's what friends are for

2008-03-10T21:41:00.006+08:00

Dear Joelle, I told you I will blog! Hahaha. Better get Enyao to read this! I'm sure he will be shocked by his girlfriend's potential to be so ra-ra ~ ;p

Anyway, introducing to one and all, my darling bestest buddy Joelle Koh Hwee Hoon! *Screamz!* The following statements will really sound like primary school English:

Joelle is my best friend. I got to know her when I was studying in Tampines JC back in year 2002. We were classmates but other than knowing we attend the same church, I wasn't very close to her. Thank God for 2004 when both of us entered NTU together. We were in need of a roomie and we found one another. Although we didn't get to to stay together in the 1st semester because of some complications in the application procedure (all thanks to the girl herself), God really brought the two of us closer. I would often visit Joelle at her Hall and try my best to scare her existing roomie away. Hahahaha. No lah! That wasn't true. Anyway, soon after, her roomie moved out and ... Muahahaha... I MOVED IN! ;p The shift in marked a brand new start to our friendship. Unlike other roomies that will quarrel or have communication breakdowns because they cannot stand staying with each other, Joelle and I lived in perfect harmony. *AMAZING!* We just got closer and closer together. I thank God for placing this angel in my life. (^_^) Now, Joelle is a part-time tutor, full-time student, full-time Enyao's girlfriend, full-time Rae's Hoon and overtime worker for God. ;p

Yupz, end of my introduction to my bestie. Haha. Anyway, I really miss NTU life and she's definitely one of the reasons. I miss the talking into the wee hours (4-5am!) at night, brushing teeth together, her hurrying me up because I bathe too long, her willingness to blow my hair for me because I was too lazy and she cannot stand my wet hair, the jogging together and prayer run around NTU, the studying together, the watching YOUTUBE although I'm always the one watching while she mug for her tutorials, the shaking her early in the morning to make sure she wakes up for lessons, the waiting for her to come back to the hostel for dinner together, the playing of guitar, the fasting together, the late night supper, the walking to JW church for meetings, the fun, joy and laughter. This is one girl that impacted me so so so SO much!

I love you Joelle!

Anyway, I'm blogging about her because we met yesterday!!! Hahaha. The last time we spent quality time together was 6 months ago?! I just felt so so happy! We had FOOD! Hahahaha. And as usual, I couldn't finish my food and she has to share food with me.

Thank you Joelle for the mushroom handphone stand! You know me the best! It's sitted in my office now! Hahaha. Took a photo but couldn't upload it. =( But know that it's my mobile's wallpaper now!!! YEAH!

Check out the photos we took when we were reallieeeeee bored...

Shot #1: *Shy*

Shot #2: *Cheese*

Shot #3: *Fishie* (I used to do this and pout...looks like a goldfish! She'll never fail to burst out laughing! Try it, it's fun!)

Shot #4: 破坏形象 (A round of applause for Joelle's boldness!)

Shot #5: Buay Song

Shot #6: That's All!

Thank you Joelle for always accomodating and flowing with me. I'm blessed to know you! Enyao is one blessed guy. Much as I am unwilling, I have to return you to him after the one evening kidnap. Hahaha. Thank you Hoon!!! *HuGz*

Thank You Girls ~

2008-03-09T08:54:00.003+08:00

Had a yummy-not-so-yummy breakfast yesterday morning at Cafe Cartel. Haha. Thank you Josce, Zhen and Zai for taking the effort to have breakfast with me and celebrate my birthday. You gals rock!

Check out my turtle birthday cupcake ...

Haha ~ Zai you rock! After 19 years of friendship and you are now appearing on my cake! Haha ~

Thank You My Dears

2008-03-05T21:14:00.008+08:00

Happy Belated Birthday Rae! Hahaha.

It's been a tremendously fun few days and I enjoyed myself thoroughly thoroughly. Thank you to all who remembered my birthday in big and little ways. I really appreciate it and thanks for making me feel like a princess!

Wow ~ 23 years old...amazing amazing..Hahaha. Was talking to Terry last Saturday and it was exactly one year ago since I joined W220, with my first CG mtg as a birthday celebration, and God really accelerated my walk with Him from then. Looking back, God is really good and looking ahead, I see a bright and adventurous future. Thank You Jesus. I know this year will be the best year yet in my life. Amen!

Before I make my 23 birthday wishes, let me thank....

Thank you 7even for my first birthday celebration and first birthday cake!

Thank you Michael for the birthday card.

Thank you Wilsen bro for the MOS burger dinner. Sorry we missed the show!

Thank you SCB HR for the nice birthday cake!

Thank you Engwee mummy for the shawl.

Thank you W459 for always surprising me. Thank you guys for the sacrifice. I feel really loved by all of you. Thank you for the mp3 and FLOWER!

Thank you Kim for the super nice "Rae, Jesus Loves You" cup which I'm showing off to everyone in the office.

Thank you Terry for the New Day New You pinkish book.

Thank you Jessica for the nice photo-frame-card. It encourages me!

Thank you Irene, Yuzhen, Weiren, Davis, Bryna, Lynn, Win, Siew, Nen, Donny, RAYvin, Susze, Terence, Yufen, Bee, Huimei & Qiuping for the wonderful leather jacket and birthday celebration!

Thank you Win for the huggy and porcupine!

Thank you Leonard for the lunch and the xiang xiang from CrabTree & Evelyn.

Thank you Hazel for the makeup kit.

AND

Thank you Bee, Sab, Stan, Merf, Siew, Nen, Jiahui, Shirley, Engwee, Wilsen, Kim, Ivan leng zai, Terence, Win, Lynn, Jaslin, Isaac, Valerie, Jon, William, Wei, Yingjie, Rayvin, Yufen, suSze, Weiren, Weijian, Lora, Joelle, ChoonPeng, Seowling, Jasmin, Jack, Davis, Weijing, Ruby, Ed, Guizai, Rachel, Doy, Edwin, Daniel, Deb, Buddy, ZhenJun, Karen, Cindy Png, Ivan pap, Jessica, Danielle, Vernon, Joy, Zhenying, Jiande, KokSiang, Szeyin, Minteck, Josce and Pastor for the birthday SMSes!

I'm so touched that you took the effort to msg me! Thank you all!!!

Now...what shall I do with the 23 wishes I can make this year?...Let's see...

1) W459 multiplying again (April) and again (February) this year.
2) A greater capacity so that I can serve God more, bringing revivals to school!
*Sincere apologies to Kel, Zhenying, Jing and the CORRI committee for not being able to attend the camp with you guys this round.*
3) Greater breakthroughs in my finances and promotion at work.
*I wanna join Duncan's Marketplace ministry!*
4) The leaders that have impacted my life (Irene, Yuzhen, Merf, Bee, Pat and William) to be attached this year!
5) The friends that have been desiring to get attached to be attached. Haha. That is if they are ready. It's just the wave now.
5) To know Jieying, Huimei, Sabrina and Geri more! ;p
6) 2 mission trips!
7) W459 to excel in their schools so that they can truly be the salt and light.
8) 2 holiday trips!
9) Wow...23 wishes is really alot! Hahahahaha. I shall reserve the remaining 14 wishes for whoever needs it along the way. ;p Anyway, my 9th wish will be to get attached this year. Yepz ~ Before I turn 24! I know my CG is very very excited now. ;p

Thank you all for the wishes!~

God's Love - Wider, Longer, Higher, Deeper

2008-02-22T11:42:00.008+08:00

*Ta-Da!* A brand new look for my blog! Haha ~ Tired of black backgrounds and decided to let my blog look brighter! Yeah ~ (^_^) Doesn't my blog look more vibrant now? ;p

Anyway, just a simple revelation to share:
Have you ever wondered to what extent does God really loves us. Because of our imperfection, we have failed Him over and over again and sometimes, we just find it so hard to believe that He still loves us. Came across this verse and was just attracted to it:

Ephesians 3:17-19 (NKJV)
17. that you, being rooted and grounded in love,
18 may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height—
19 to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.

I guess the Contemporary English Version (CEV) makes it clearer:
17. Stand firm and be deeply rooted in His love.
18. I pray that you and all of God's people will understand what is called wide or long or high or deep.
19. I want you to know all about Christ's love, although it is too wonderful to be measured. Then your lives will be filled with all that God is.

The extent to which God loves us is too wonderful to be measured or to understand and this is how amazing God is.

His love is wider than the widest horizon
His love is longer than the longest valley
His love is higher than the highest sky
His love is deeper than the deepest ocean

Understand this and you will stop aruging with that guilt inside you that is constantly trying to tell you that God can never love you again. Stand firm my friends, be deeply rooted in His love. Amen!

Haha ~ Been changing background music these few days. Think this will stay for quite some time since it suits the new lively look of my blog. =)

Yilun & Eugene used this song as their march out on their big day. Really nice song from the movie Ever After ~ Enjoy ~*

Ever Ever After - Carrie Underwood
Storybook endings, fairy tales coming true
Deep down inside we want to believe they still do
And a secret is taught, it's our favourite part of the story
Let's just admit we all want to make it too

Ever ever after
If we just don't get it our own way
Ever ever after
It may only be a wish away

Starting your fashion, wear your heart on your sleeve
Sometimes you reach what's real just by making believe
Unafraid, unashamed
There is joy to be claimed in this world
You even might wind up being glad to be you

Ever ever after
Though the world will tell you it's not smart
Ever ever after
The world can be yours if you let your heart
Believe in ever after

No wonder your heart feels it's flying
Your head feels it's spinning
Each happy ending's a brand new beginning
Let yourself be enchanted, you just might break through
To ever ever after
Forever could even start today
Ever ever after
Maybe it's just one wish away
Your ever ever after

Ever ever ever after (I've been dreaming of a true love's kiss)
Oh, for ever ever after

Thank you 7even

2008-02-18T20:38:00.011+08:00

Had my first Birthday celebration with my dearest ones with whom I grew up in St. Anthony's. I love you girls! Thanks for the bag too! I love you girls so so much! And I was really happy that day cuz it was the first time where there were 100% turn up! Haha..strictly speaking, 100 over percent since most of them brought their other half. I'm really happy for you dearies ~ *HuGz*

Thank you dearies for taking time off to celebrate my birthday. Check out "Ma Maison" at Bugis ~ Quite a nice place ~
2nd row: (Left to Right) Joy, Xuan, Shir & Hui (the most faithful organizer)
1st row: (Left to Right) Kate (our new friend from HK), me, Dawn, Vel (the leap year baby)
Yeah ~ it's an almost full photo cuz PS was late.

NG Shot because it's the wrong cake! Hahahaha....This is supposed to be Vel's. Haha.

*Ta-Da!* MY CAKE! It's MANGO! HoHoHo ~ Mango Rocks!

My Birthday Present in a nice nice Gift Wrap ~ Yeah ~ It's a brown bag from Warehouse! Wheee ~* Love it!

Now ~ This is what I call REUNION! 100% attendance! Wheee ~*

(Left to Right) Me, PS, Shir.

Literally ~ PS. I love you! Hahaha.

That's all folks ~

Enjoy my background music! I love the song ~ Just like God singing to me and I replying. Nice ~

All I Ask Of You by Barbra Streisand
No more talk of darkness
Forget these wide-eyed fears
I'm here
Nothing can harm you
My words will warm and calm you

Let me be your freedom
Let daylight dry your tears
I'm here
With you, beside you
To guard you and to guide you

Say you love me every winter morning
Turn my head with talk of summertime
Say you need me with you now and always
Promise me that all you say is true
That's all I ask of you

Let me be your shelter
Let me be your light
You're safe
No one will find you
Your fears are far behind you

All I want is freedom
A world with no more night
And you
Always beside me
To hold me and to hide me

Then say you'll share with me one love,
One lifetime
Let me lead you from your solitude
Say you need me with you,
Here beside you

Anywhere you go, let me go too
That's all I ask of you

Say the word and I will follow you
Share each day with me,
Each night, each morning
Say you feel the way I do
That's all I ask of you

Anywhere you go, let me go too
Love me
That's all I ask of you

羅文裕 Wing:: 愛情漫遊

2008-02-12T00:33:00.000+08:00

Like the song on my blog? It's composed and sung by a up and coming Taiwanese singer, Wing! It's really nice. :) Super sweet song!

Happy Valentine's Day to all in advance! Haha. And special thanks to Lynn and Nicole for volunteering to be my Valentine on Thursday! I love you gals ~

羅文裕 Wing:: 愛情漫遊

就怕時間不夠讓你好好愛我
偶而我犯的錯
你連寬容也溫柔
沈默也是溝通哭泣也為感動
不管黑夜白晝
我會讓你無淚
無憂時間慢慢走像一個沙漏
愛細水長流
不管天多冷有你抱著我
也會覺得暖和

我和你一前一後一左一右
在愛情漫遊
眼前的風光雖美不勝收
比不過你一個笑容
最初的感動還留在心中
從來沒變過
那怕有一天我們都老了
還要牽你的手

故事的最後結局會有許多種
而我們的愛是唱不完的歌

我和你一前一後一左一右
在愛情漫遊
眼前的風光雖美不勝收
比不過你一個笑容
最初的感動還留在心中
從來沒變過
那怕有一天我們都老了
還要牽你的手
那怕有一天我們都老了
還要牽你的手

Gong Xi Gong Xi

2008-02-09T02:23:00.001+08:00

Had a great fellowship with Pastor and the leaders today at Marina Square. We watched Ah Long Pte Ltd and I would rate it 4 out of 5! Reason being, it made me laugh! Laughed out LOUD! Hahaha. I'm easily satisfied...just make me laugh and everything's alright. =)

Ah Long Pte Ltd is a light-hearted black comedy about the triad world and the money-lending business. The movie takes on a humorous and sarcastic treatment on the underworld. It depicts how a young lady, Li Hua (Fann Wong) tries to restructure her money-lending triad into a professional and 'loving' triad that stands against the use of violence after she takes over from her triad leader (Richard Low) who retired. Her various restructuring plans (which are no doubt very creative) bring about hilarious results. Li Hua tired of her mother's constant nagging to get married, she finally relented and proposed to Mr Fang (Mark Lee), an effeminate dance instructor cum image stylist. Surprised to many and even herself, Mr Fang accepted the proposal. The unusual union, despite the misfits, soon blossom into love.

One movie down, 2 more to go! I wanna watch Kung Fu Dunk and CJ7!

Hrmm...This CNY is not as festive as the previous years. I don't feel as excited as I would used to feel. Initially, I thought it could be because I'm getting old...Hahaha. But after fellowshipping with the leaders today, I realized that most of them are feeling the same way roo! Haha. Phew ~ *Relieved*. It's not me alone! *Winkz*

Anyway, had a very very interesting conversation with my 7 year old niece on the first day of CNY. Point to note > Because we only meet once a year, every year is a "new introduction" for us to her. So this year's no exception but as usual, I am always able to gain her undivided attention. Hahaha. Well ~ I've anointing for kids I guess. Anyway, meet my dearest niece: Her name is Lea..Lea Toh. Check out the following conversation we had...in Chinese...

Rae vs. Lea
Scenario: Rae and Lea were watching TV together in Uncle's living room while the rest were busy chatting away.
Lea: 阿姨，你给我红包了吗？
Rae: Huh? 我还没有结婚leh，不能给你。
Lea: 还没有结婚啊？Orh...
(Lea nods her head, turned to continue with the TV programme and gave a very "I'm in deep thoughts kinda face"...Then she turned back to me again...)
Lea: 你几岁？
(I was already crying out loud in my heart!)
Rae: 你猜？
(Little Lea started thinking again....very very deep in thoughts....)
Lea: 两十五？
Rae: 没有两十五的。是二十五。
Lea: *Embarrased* Orh...25. *Giggles*
(Frankly speaking, I was so afraid that she will say 30+...Phew..You never know what and how young kids think)
Rae: No lah...23.
Lea: Orh...23.

AND the conversation ended here. Ha ~ Nahz ~ There's no moral of the story. Just wanna share with you guys how adorable my little niece is. Anyway, she was stucked to me during the whole stay at uncle's place and when she had to leave, she told me this > 阿姨，我明年再来找你OK? And she waved Bye Bye to me 7 times! Hahaha...I actually counted. ;p She's really cute lah ~ Her mum took a photo of us..will get it uploaded as soon as I get it. She's cuteeeeee.

This year was peaceful as compared to last year when I hear non-stop "Do you have a boyfriend?" playing around my ears like non-stop hits. Phew ~ thank God it was mild this year. Was only asked twice and period. *Phew* The issue in my family is >>> My cousins are all getting married at a young age and this puts me in a dangerous position. The upcoming one is one who's around 28 ~ and the next one is just 2 years older than me. *Sigh* What kind of a trend is this? Ah ~ I'm starting to dread this kind of questions...Gosh ~ symptoms of getting old? OH NO!

Counting Down to My Birthday

2008-02-05T00:45:00.000+08:00

*Ta-Da!* Here I am on a mission to blog because Stanley is complaining that my blog is dying. Haha. Thank God for CG members who are always reminding me that I have a blog to maintain.

Anyway, life's been good for me. Up up and away ~ Wheeeee ~*

Frankly speaking, I've got no idea what to blog about! Haha. Hence, I've decided to list down the 10 things I want for my Birthday this year! Hahaha. (That's the cost of asking me to blog when I don't feel like blogging.)

For my birthday which is less than a month ago (ps...my birthday is on the *ahem* 4 MARCH)...I want....

1) A MP3 because "Wayne" (my MP3 player) is mal-functioning.

2) A DELL/APPLE lappie because "Keith" (my Lappie) is lagging BIG TIME (Bee can testify to that).
"Faith" (my handphone) has been hanging these few days too..think it's going bonkerz soon but I still she bu de to part with it. Shall be holding on to it for one more year. OK..I know most of you will be, "What?! Your gadgets have names?!" Haha..I'm not sick. I just feel that by personifying something or personalizing a special name for someone makes me treasure that thing/person more. Joelle Koh, now you know why I treasure you so much because I helped in naming you! Haha. ;p

3) Many many pair of heels

4) A jacket for work

5) A big and thin NKJV Bible

6) Books and more books

7) Clothes and even more clothes

8) Running shoes...(I successfully destroyed mine. It's no longer "joggable".)

9) Strong Bags! (Hahaha)

10) FLOWERS & CARDS & SMSes! (Haha..I know I cheated on this..there are 3 items here...*Grinz*)

Dearest friends,
You don't have to thank me for making your "Shop for Rae's present" experience easier. That's the least I could do. You can don't buy me anything but please remember to wish me Happy Birthday. I'll be more than satisfied. (^_^)
Love,
Rae

Good Morning!

2008-01-24T07:05:00.000+08:00

I'm finding joy in blogging during weird hours ~* =) Took a day's MC yesterday because of skin infection but thank God it wasn't those kind of super weak and sickly MC days. I felt uncomfortable but I still had the strength to do other things. Anyway, thank God for rest.

SOLITUDE
I never knew I will enjoy solitude but these few weeks have proven me wrong. Spending time alone with God is just so so enjoyable. Spending time with myself is really cool. I've been reading the Bible, praying, listening to songs, reading more books, just spending time alone. Gaoyuan shared before that he seldom needs to sleep at 1plus or 2plus in the morning. He always has sufficient time to do follow up, spend time with his family, work, etc. And the secret to this is: Don't MSN. Haha. When he shared that, I thought to myself, "So true but so hard!" Nevertheless, I tried this a few weeks ago and realized that cutting down on MSN is really useful! Alright man! Another alternative to multiply my time.

Dear God, I love spending time with You.

Awesome

2008-01-16T00:30:00.000+08:00

I had a great zone meeting today! It's the first zone meeting of 2008 and I really enjoyed myself. Thank you May, QiuPing, Nen, Sab, Mei, Fen and Jon (Welcome Jon!!!) for going home together with me!

Mode for the day: Thinking

It's been quite some time since I've spent a whole day thinking. Today's really a fruitful day. Nah ~ There wasn't any extraordinary encounters but the same things that happen every other day sparked off the thinking sparkles inside me. I was just using the whole day to think and plan and think and plan....I really enjoyed it!!!

Was fellowshipping with May, Jon & Qiu on our way home and sharing about our CGs and I suddenly remembered what Wendy shared some time in October last year - The secret to multiplying a CG every year:
- Youth Group: Give them Attention
- Young Adult Group: Give them Recognition
- Adult Group: Give them Respect

Yes and it really works! It's amazing how God moulds each and every one of us in such a unique way that in different stages of our lives, we require different food to feed our soul. I know my 2008 will be a year of Growth.

God, give me the strength to give my beloveds ATTENTION & RECOGNITION."

Haha ~ Random entry. Time to sleep ~ Nitez All ~

The 5 Love Languages

2008-01-10T13:47:00.000+08:00

Lynn! You've impacted me! Haha. This is the final test - The 5 Love Languages - I took while waiting for myself to feel less bloated...

My love language:
#1. Quality Time - 8 points
#2. Physical Touch - 8 points
#3. Words of Affirmation - 7 points
#4. Acts of Service - 6 points
#5. Receiving of Gifts - 1 point

My primary love languages are Quality Time and Physical Touch! Haha. This is a revelation to myself. I have unknowingly been influenced by Lynn Darling! Haha. Interesting...

Alright! I'm done with blogging and trying Personality Tests! See ya guys ~ Back to my analysis and more analysis at work...Wheee~*

What's Your Personality Love Style?

2008-01-10T13:42:00.000+08:00

Here's another quiz you can try - What's Your Personality Love Style?:

Here is the analysis:
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

Mine's the same as Irene! Haha. Interesting...

Get to know yourself better

2008-01-10T13:37:00.000+08:00

Just came back from a super sumptuous lunch with Mummy and Bernice (it's glad meeting you!). Now...I'm so FULL! I can hardly focus. Haha. Was reading Irene's blog and saw the "Get to know yourself better" test. You can try it too!

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

I'm still very full! *Yawnz*

Focus

2008-01-07T19:38:00.000+08:00

Pastor preached a great message yesterday - The Power of Focus. I remembered Pastor preach on Focus some time last year in Jurong West. I was impacted and now, I'm still impacted. I love Luke 9:51-53! Jesus's face was set - set for whom He is here for. God, I am set for You. My path this year is set for You and You alone. SET.

Sunday was really a tremendously joyful day. Thank God for W459. Everyone was there for the first service of 2008 and I mean everyone. (^_^) I'm happy!

My 100% W459 attendance. Missing: Zheming who left early.

Ok Guowei ~ I know the sun is really gleaming hot. I love W459. They were all perspiring but they endured the heat to fulfill my desire to take a CG photo. Thank you!

Had a fruitful fellowship with the leaders - Lynn darling, Bee, Win, Rayvin & Suryanto. They are really great company!

Pretty Bee & Lynn ~ They love food...

They really do!

So does Win...

And Ray...vin....

Suryanto was late..so his handsome & photogenic face was not captured here. =) I had a great Sunday!

Back Track to Saturday...

I want to especially thank Valerie & Gouwei! Thank you guys for spending your Saturday with me. I really enjoy the fellowship. :)

Professional Shots of what we had...

Val has a talent for photography! Just like Jasmin.

Guowei

Val ~

And guess who's the photographer that shot them so handsomely and prettily? >>> Me!

Look at the stars on my head! I'm glowing! Wheee~*

Watched American Gangster with Bee, Win, William, Siew, Lynn and Naresh on Saturday. I love Denzel Washington. He's truly a light in the marketplace. Good story plot and good moral values.

My first photo with Bee! Haha. Thanx Bee for your zi pai skills! If not we gonna miss taking photo together again! I love Beeee!

IC SubZone Rocks!

2008-01-02T19:27:00.000+08:00

Spent my new year night out with my mei mei de subzone! Haha. Check out the photos we took:

Went to Satay House at Lau Pa Sat for the first time yesterday. It's quite a cool place! Thank God for nice weather! When Nen, Fen and I were there, it was still drizzling. Prayer works!

After the satay and dinner, we went on to this desert stall that isn't exactly very nice. Haha.

Suzy endorsing for the shop ~ The shop's name is Ji De Chi (i.e. Remember to eat). Haha. So cute!

I love all of them! =)

Happy New Year!

2008-01-01T14:28:00.000+08:00

*Screamz!* So So So SO HIGH!!! Haha. It's a brand new day, a brand new year! WoOhOo!!! Hahaha. I think no number of exclamation marks can express the excitement inside of me!!!!!! WhOoSh! I'm happy! Really happy! Woke up this morning and the smell of the wind...*REFRESHING!* I smell a new smell..the smell of hope and joy...it's the new year's smell! Serious guys ~ Don't doubt my nose. There's another smell in the air...the smell of new year! 2008 will be such such SUCH a wonderful year!

Woke up at 12 plus today. It's record breaking! I haven't slept till so late for a long long time! Had my first meal of the year with my dearest Mummy and sis. It feels good to be at home with my family members. Then, I spent 1.5 hours cleaning up my table! Yes...my table isn't exactly very big...it's just a normal table...but it took me 1.5 hours to clear everything that was cluttered on it. Wow ~~~ I was really amazed and the amount of stuffs I stacked on that table. *Amazing!* Then I spent another half an hour wiping the windows (which is supposed to be done last year in Nov ;p) Thank you Mummy for being so understanding. Hee...she was seriously going to ground me if I still don't get my windows cleaned by 2008. So yeah! I'm starting the year right and well! Hahahaha.

Ok ~ I'm off to do more cleaning up and then off to Far East with my sister for the long procrastinated outing and then off to Raffles place for dinner with mei mei de Irene, mei mei de Yuzhen, mei mei de Suzy, mei mei de Yufen and mei mei de Shannen! Everyone's mei mei de! YEAH!

Haha. Yes ~ I'm still high! Very very high! Wheeeee~*

Thank You My Angels

2007-12-31T11:46:00.000+08:00

2007 has really been an exciting year for me. Changes upon changes, transitions upon transitions. I've never felt my life move so fast before! God is really good and I have really grown. Well ~ Check out my list of "To Thank People"!

Had to be separated from W243 after a loooooong time of 3 years but it's all for the glory of God. Everyone's doing well and more well now! Thank you Mervyn for being the bestest friend and msn chatting partner. Brother Bear, you've really made a difference in my life. Thank you for your love that is shown forth in a very very very special way. ;p I'm really proud of you and am very happy to see you on stage! I know you can! So jiayou! Thank you Karen ah ma who never fails to say I've grown prettier everytime you see me. Haha. You make my day all the time! Thank you Nana for the super warm hellos and hugs each time we meet. I love you! Thank you YongKwang ah ma who is always so cheeky. Hahaha. Though I'm seeing you less and less...but each time I see J7 I can tell everyone that's my ex cg mbr! (^_^) Thank you Eerong, Gisele, Huisi, Jianxin, Ben and the rest in W243! I love you guys! You guys are the most easy-going group of people! Tolerating with my nonsensical games and always being so embracing. =)

Thank you W331 for the hospitality in my short 1 month with you! Thank you Nette for your sharing! I'll always remember what you told us the other day at Foyer 3 - "I always believe that no sheep should be lost". That really impacted me! Thank you MeiQi, Dot, Lun, Schumann, bro Adrian, and the rest of the CG. I'm blessed to be able to be part of your family!

Thank you W220 for loving me! You guys are a bunch of super loving family!

Thank you Jiahui Xiaogu! I'm so so so so so SO happy to be reunited with you after sooooooooooo many years! hahaha. I'm blessed to have you in my life. Thanks for teaching me how to love hugs. ;p *I love hugs now!* Thank you Kim for thinking that I'm a sec sch student the first time you saw me. hahahaha. *High* You're such a dearie to me and I love you! Thank you Terry and Charis for the acts of service and love! Thank you Edmund, Josh, HuiQin, Val, and the rest of W220 for accepting me so readily!

Thank you W362 for making the family a even bigger one! You guys are just simply great!

A big thank you to the synergized W220 & W362 - A family that loves! *HuGz*

And there's a very very impt person I must thank and she's Yuzhen! Thank you Yuzhen for your unceasing patience in me. Thank you for constantly helping me and guiding me. I really really love you! Thank you Yuzhen!

Of course, how can I end my list of to thank CGs without my very own W459?!

Thank you guys for always supporting me. We are ending this year well all thanks to the hard work you have put in. Let's grow the CG further in 2008! *Big HuGz* You guys are THE BEST!

---Ok. That's the end of my CG appreciation!---

Well ~ Above my CGs, there are so many other people I want to thank!

SOT Team 17! You guys rock! Thank you for the wonderful 4.5 months!!!

Thank you mei mei de Irene for believing in me and bringing me into zone. I love you! You play a great big part in who and where I am today! *Hugz*

Thank you Joelle bestie! My all time most loved sister, roomie, best friend, confidante...etc etc. I'm so happy you found your long awaited one! Yeah! You are one step closer to our goal of getting married at 25! Hahaha. Enyao ~ you better take care of my dearie okie? If not I'll snatch her back. haha. Joelle ~ Soo really loves you! Wishing you all the best and you are dearly missed by me! Let's meet up soon okie?! *Muackz*

Thank you Weijing, Cherie and Gen! You gals rock my world in NTU! Now that we're all working and have lesser time for one another, I really miss you gals! Take Care while I'm far away from you all hor? I know you gals miss my lameness. Haha. So we'll meet up really soon ok?

Not forgetting my 2 bestest FYP buddies...Chenjun & Jimmy! I'm so happy to see the two of you doing so well and still so on fire for God! Thank you for always showering me with care! You two are the best!

Thank you Rick for being the best brother in my life! I'm so glad you're back from Shanghai! Haha. We still havent met up for a proper fellowship!!! *Ah!* OkOk..as promised. 1st 2 weeks on January! I promise!

Thank you Alfred Kia ~ Thanks for taking care of me while I'm in hostel. You're the best er-zi!

Finally, I want to thank all the dearies in zone! Thank you Suzy, Yufen, Shannen, Lynn, Siew, Mei, Jieying, May, Edwin! You guys are an inspiration to me! Thank you for the friendship and encouragement! I love all of you!

The list is going to be extremely long if I carry on. Guys ~ Just know that you are precious to me. Thank you for a great 2007 and I'm so looking forward to a wonderful 2008 with you!

2008 will be a better year because there is you and me and there is God! wheee ~*

Merry Christmas!

2007-12-24T11:31:00.000+08:00

It's Christmas Eve! Hohohohohohohohohoho ~ I'm so so so HIGH! Haha. Thank God for this joyous season. Anyway, I'm on half-day leave today! Can't wait to attend service at Jurong West. The past 2 productions in Expo were awesome! I believe it's gonna be so so cool in Jurong West too! Wheee ~*

Had a very fruitful night out with Siew and Lynn last night. Thank you darlings for the good time spent. I really thank God for the two of you! And Siew and I are so blessed! Check out what Lynn bought for us each!

A Guess Wallet! *Touched* Thank you so so much Lynn darling! I'm so blessed! *HuGz*

W459 did a great job yesterday! Booking seats, taking care of friends, helping out...I'm so proud of all of them! Isaac & Boon ~ thanx for the rose! I'm so blessed too! Haha.

Yes ~ I will go gaga over flowers. I confess.

Haha...And Isaac & Boon must have been so so tired...

Check out their couple shoes!

Haha..left Jasmin's shoes (white shoe lace) that are not in yet...Haha. the 3 of them have the same pair of shoes!

My dearest Jas & Val dressed up so pretty yesterday! So did Shankari, Qin (the yummy donut tee) and Huiling (you are finally wearing your birthday present!). I've a pretty CG! Haha.

Didn't get to take photos with the other girls. So just a preview to 2 of my sweeties.

This Christmas is so so wonderful. My first Christmas with my first CG. It's awesome and thank You Jesus for making all this come to pass. Thank You Lord!

Yeah ~ 10 more minutes to knocking off. Wheee ~*

I'm a happy girl!

One more day to Christmas! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Christmas Christmas Christmas !

2007-12-22T00:44:00.000+08:00

Christmas is so in the air! Even as I'm typing my entry right now, my heart's beating so fast! I love Christmas!!! Yeah! It's the time of the year! Wheeee~* *SCREAMZ* I want to watch Alvin and The Chipmunks! Not sure if Siew and co. went to watch today but if they have...someone, please volunteer to watch with me!!! I promise I'll minimize my laughter volume, won't hit you when I laugh and definitely won't throw your face. I will try my best! Hahaha.

Anyway, I just want to say I'm so so proud of my CG! Thank you W459 for believing with me and thank you for the many encouraging SMSes, assuring me that we can make it! Thank you my sweeties and yandaos...I'm so loved by all of you! I know all of you are working hard and I appreciate it! Let's end this year with a great big BANG and have a super high round up for 2007 okiez? I have a "make-things-happen" CG! *HuGz*

Christmas Christmas Christmas! Hahaha. I'm listening to the Chipmunk song while blogging. SO HIGH HIGH HIGH! Hahahhaha....Oh no ~ Think I'll have problem sleeping tonight. TOO EXCITED! Wheeee ~*

Went out with the 7even tonight. Well ~ was really tired..so sorry dearies! Really had no strength to talk too much BUT I really enjoyed myself and I hope you gals enjoyed the movie! Time really flies! We were still in school uniform in Secondary 3 a few years ago and almost everyone's stepping into the working world now! Haha. Our gathering crowd is getting bigger too...Vel's & Wen's & Xuan's boys boys will be joining us more often in future. I'm happy for you gals and you must be happy too okie? *HuGz*

Okie...Shall end my entry here. STILL EXCITED FOR TOMORROW! Hahahahahha.

C H R I S T M A S !

2007-12-21T18:20:00.000+08:00

This is so cool! One of the greatest findings in my working life in SCB. I can blog in my office! *Muahahaha...Evil Grinz* I'm waiting for Ally to e-mail me and meanwhile, was just wondering if it's possible to blog since most of the websites are blocked, including my Gmail. Who knows?! Lo & Behold! *Ta-Da!* It's bloggable!

Surprise Surprise! (^_^)

Anyway, Ally's on da house! She sent me what we were looking for! Hohoho ~ Gotta run for Christmas Dinner soon!!! Wheee ~*

Looking forward to more blogging sessions in the office! Yeah!

All I Want For Christmas Is...

2007-12-17T02:36:00.000+08:00

Haha..Check out this article some of the leaders saw at HK Cafe..Super cute!

Haha. The description suits me ah..most pampered in the family and very energetic. But please ~ I'm not mischievous, neither am i downright greedy. The latter 2 describes *ahem* (you know who you are) more. Haha.

Anyway, haven't have the time to post up what I want for Christmas this year. So here goes:

1. A Great Harvest of Souls in W459!
W459...I'm counting on you, you and YOU! I know you guys will make it happen. 1+3 and even more this Christmas alright?! 1 2 3 YES!

2. A New MP3 Player!
Wayne's (ps. my mp3) been sick for a long time now. Injured his "head" and now his scrolling button is down too. *Sigh* I got to discard him soon...Please someone..buy me a mp3 player!

3. A New Bag
As usual, my frequency of bag spoiling is fast fast FAST. I need a new bag again! Hahaha. This will make bag carrying for Isaac and Joshua much easier.

4. To Highlight My Hair
My red's gone and I miss it! Haha. I wanna get it highlighted before Christmas!

5. Hrmm...Think this year's Christmas list is really short. Can't think of 10 things..can't even think of 5...Hahahaha. Shall have a longer New Year List! ;p

That's all folks ~ I love you guys!

Love is in the air ~ Wheee ~* Soon it will be Christmas day!

Happy Birthday Yuzhen!

2007-12-12T00:36:00.000+08:00

This is a special entry dedicated to my dearest and prettiest CGL Yuzhen.

Pretty Yuzhen cutting the yummy birthday cake!

Dearest Yuzhen ...

Happy Birthday!!! I thank God for such a wonderful creation like you! Thank you for making a difference in my life and I really appreciate all that you have done in my life. Though you always tell everyone that you have a very special CG, the truth is...the CG has a very special YOU. Thank you Thank you Thank you!

I pray that this year will be such a great year for you and for W362. I believe that you will bring the CG up to a higher level and at the same time, you willl experience tremendous growth in your personal life as well! So jiayou Yuzhen! I believe in you and am believing with you ~

May all your wishes come true and yepz ~ I'm praying for a Prince Charming especially for you! (^_-) I love you Yuzhen!

More photos we took while out celebrating Yuzhen's birthday:

BREAKTHROUGH!

2007-12-10T01:05:00.000+08:00

Service with Dr. John Avanzini today is really awesome. Powerful powerful message on being a man without guile, without deceit. I teared when I gave my offering today. Wow ~ When was the last time it happened?! It's so convenient to give to God something that you want to give but it's so so challenging to bring to God something that HE wants you to give. Today is the day when I brought something to God that HE wants me to give and I felt it...so strongly! I was really struggling at that point in time when I was under the fig tree. Should I or should I not? I was struggling between my spirit and my head...I wanted to just give God something that I want to give but God spoke that that's not what He wants. Wow ~ I don't want to be double-minded and I obeyed. Amen amen and amen. I really don't know how am I going to survive this month...but I know it'll be such an interesting month! 1 month of 100% reliance on God. It's gonna be fun!!! *Hallelujah!*

Christmas is really coming and I'm so excited! Haha..Great countdown! *Whoosh!* Had my 1st Christmas party for the year 2007 on Friday with my department. It's so cool! Haha..Check out my nice nice Christmas hat!

Had a great time of fellowship with my dears today. My dears are pool champions! Check this out:

Seowling in action. She's REALLIEEEEEE good!

Bryan...Really good too! Haha..after 2 rounds of warm up. ;p

Then there's Seowling teaching Jian An ...
And yeah ~ We all played! Seowling, Jian An, Bryan, Boon, Jasmin and Kim (Our VIP) ~ It was fun!

Of course ~ while they played..we took photos! ;p

Haha...The following is cute...Emo-ing together...

Pool was really fun! Although we aren't exactly very good but it's fun! Haha. Anyway..went off to PS to meet Yuping and more photos!

Don't they look alike? With and without specs...Hahaha.

Simply pretty no matter what...Muahaha

Chipmunks power! I wanna watch!!! This is so incomplete...can we have more volunteers to pose next time??? Thanks!

And finally...Fighting over foooooood....

My dears ~ Thank you for making it happen this week. I love you. All of you! *HuGz*

You Are Faithful

2007-12-05T00:59:00.001+08:00

Thank God for a wonderful meeting tonight. I just want to thank God for His faihtfulness and for His love.

I am blessed.

Soon it will be Christmas Day

2007-11-25T23:17:00.000+08:00

My favourite time of the year! Christmas 2007!

Well ~ as compared to previous years, I'm blogging about Christmas quite late this year. Nah ~ not that I don't feel it but I'm just too busy to blog! Haha. Ask SiewPeng and you will know. We smelled Christmas in September!!! *Yeahz!* Christmas Rocks!

Why is Christmas Rae's favourite time of the year?

1) It reminds me that the year is coming to an end and I'll reflect on what God has done for me this year. Every year, without fail...God has been faithful and good.

2) It gives me the excitement to look into the following year. Exciting times are coming up!

3) Love is in the air. It just adds joy to my life.

4) The lightings are just gorgeous and the smell of Christmas is simply GREAT!

5) Without Christmas, I'll not be who I am today. If not for God's unselfish love to send His only begotten Son onto this Earth, I'll be living a self-defeated and purposeless life.

--- So...I LOVE CHRISTMAS!!! Thank You Father for this great gift. I love You Lord!

Check out the photos I took so far!

The road along Hotel Rendezvous...took it on my way home the other night...

Jurong West is all geared up for Christmas! Here's the reception counter...

This's the nicey sofa area...

The mini waterfall in the lobby! I am so excited about our shift back to Jurong West!!!

Here's Parkway! There's a huge nice Christmas tree outside the shopping mall but I was lazy to go out of the mall to take the photo...hahaha..Anyway, I LOVE STARS!

Anyway, love's in the air. I love every single one of you! This Christmas is going to be so so SO exciting! And I know W459 is excited too! Check this out:

*Ta-Da!* We set up the Christmas tree at Shirley's place after CG on Saturday! Yeah! We love Christmas! And of course...Special thanks to Yuzhen, Terry and Vernon for helping us with the tree!

W459 Rocks

2007-11-22T20:37:00.001+08:00

Finally! I've uploaded the photos! My dearest W459 having fun at West Coast Park ~

Kick off of 1 day of photo-taking. That's my second youngest on my right -> ChengYhee. She's only 11! Then there's my quite old one on my left. Hahaha. Jasmin ~ I'm updating cuz you're nagging. =p

Ok. They have a act cute leader...

Haha...Cute!

Bryan and Isaac ~ They're forever taking extraordinary photos...

Our 2 birthday babies ~ Shimin and Guowei ~ Today's Guowei's actual Birthday! Happy Birthday Guowei!

1 turned 12 and 1 turned 15....

Guest starring Shirley ~

Youths....hahaha

Why's Huiling laughing? hrmm....

Artistic shot of Stan...

My loves...jeremiah and bryan who are yakking away while I'm talking...dOtz...then there's the ever supportive shireen, shirley and val! Isaac ~ you've a talent for photo taking!

From bottom up...Guowei, Isaac, Bryan, Jian An, Weiliang, Jeremiah..haha. It's their birthday present for our dearest Guowei.

Boys... Hahahaha

*Ta-Da!* W459 for you! First CG outing and it was simply fun. This marks a new beginning...a brand new start. God, use me to raise this generation up for You!

Thank You W220 & W362

2007-11-11T21:34:00.000+08:00

This is the day that the Lord has made and we will rejoice and be glad in it! 10 November 2007 - Multiplication Day for W220 & W362. We have made it! We multiplied! Thank You Jesus! I'm really blessed. God is indeed faithful and true. Kim, I agree with what you wrote in your lovely card to me - All our prayers come to pass! God is indeed faithful! We prayed and He made it happen. Thank You once again Jesus.

My dearest W220, thank you all for the chance to be a member in your lovely family. I'll never forget the love you guys embrace me with since the first day I got transferred in. Thank you for the hugs and thank you for the joy. You guys are special and no matter what, you guys will always be my love. W220 will always be in my heart. Thank you Terry my darling son, thank you Celeste my dearest praying partner, thank you Edmund (you rock!), thank you Aunty Ruby, thank you Ham my dearest brother, thank you Yingjie. You guys must grow and I know you guys WILL GROW in W362. Dearest others who are following me in our new lovely W459...let's run and grow together in the Lord.

My dearest W362, the synergy after the combine is indeed amazing! I enjoy every fellowship we had together. Jiayou guys ~ you are special and the NEW W362 will be stronger and better and greater!

Dearest Yuzhen, you are really one great warrior for God! Thank you for your constant guidance and all the hard work you have put in to grow the CGs. Thank you so much! I love you so so much! *Hugz*

10 November 2007 - The Birth of W459. Moving on....Stronger...

Thank You Mummy!

2007-11-05T22:14:00.000+08:00

Haha..*Surprise!* I think this blog entry will shock my mummy big time! Haha...By the way, I'm not referring to my mummy at home although I love her super alot too. This entry is especially for Mummy Engwee! *Ta-Da*

Dear Mummy...

Thanks for lunching with me today. Although I didn't get to drink my strawberry milkshake from MOS (*Sobz*)...I'm really thankful that you appeared! It was really a tiring day and yupz ~ crappy you just manage to sms at the right time. ;p

Dear Mummy ...

Thank you for your friendship for the past 6 years (WOW!). Ever since our 1st 3 months in TPJC, you've always been there for me. Thank you for your endless patience! You're the best mummy!

Dear Mummy ...

Christmas is coming! yes ~ I'll buy you a big Mother's Day + Birthday + Christmas present. You're the bestest mummy! Let's rise up together and GROW!

Dear Mummy ...

After such a sweet entry from me, please get ready to bless me BIG TIME this Christmas ok? (^_~)

Hahaha ~ Thanx Mummy!

彩虹

2007-11-04T00:26:00.000+08:00

Haven't blogged for a long time! It's been really busy...busy busy busy! Thank you all for tagging faithfully! Hrmm..don't really have any inspiration on what to blog about..but just wanna share Jay Chou's new song..it's really nice!

作曲:周杰伦作词:周杰伦

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有的云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑
我怎么睡得着
你的声音这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开
我知道很简单
你说依赖
是我们的阻碍
就算放开
但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

RAP
看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的声音这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕会绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

I want to serve You more

2007-10-08T11:12:00.000+08:00

The greatest thing in all my life is serving You
The greatest thing in all my life is serving You
I want to serve You more
I want to serve You more
The greatest thing in all my life is serving You

Learned about servanthood over CG last week and there's this deep cry in me, "God! I want to serve You more!"

Work has started and it's tough, trying to juggle between work, CG, family and friends.

2 Corinthians 4:8-10 (NIV)
We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body.

I will not be crushed, nor give up! The devil might be waiting to see how I'm going to give up. But NO WAY. God will pick me up and He will rise me up to a level you will be shocked! The blood of victory is in me. Amen!

Vocation vs. Vacation

2007-09-22T11:15:00.000+08:00

This week was a hectic week for me! Haha ~ Like Yuzhen, I thought I'm already very well trained in my 4.5 months in SOT but still ~ amazingly, I fell sick! And the reason for me falling sick is even more duh...Lethargy?! *Faintz* Hahaha...I was "in awe" when the doc told me this. I had insufficient rest. Hrmm...I need a healthier body system!

Anyway, I started work on Wednesday and I would say that this job is really a blessing from God. Let's see...

Saturday
I received a sms from Cherie darling, asking if I'm still looking for a job and she told me about the job opening in Standard Chartered. Then, I emailed her my resume late at night.

Monday
I received a call from Standard Chartered asking for an interview. *Gosh!* I didn't do any readings nor do I know what the job is about! How to go for interview?!
Anyway, i went...

The interview didn't go very smoothly. I didn't know how to answer many of his questions and it just seems that the job requirements and me simply clashed. But I really like the job! I just had the feeling that I will learn alot and this will be a great first job for me.

Left the interview disappointed! I told God on my way home that I really like the job but I screwed up in the interview. =( Then then then ...the miracle happened! I received a call from the HR saying that I'm shortlisted for the job!

Tuesday
Signed the contract at last minute call.

Wednesday
First day of work!

Fast fast fast! Everything moved really fast. Anyway, I really want to thank God for Cherie. Dearie, thanx for strongly recommending me to the person. I'm really happy that I'm the first person you thought of. Thank you so much!!!

AND...thank God for opening up this job opportunity. It's really through His grace and favour...Amen!

Definition of Vocation:
A vocation is an occupation, either professional or voluntary, that is seen more to those who carry it out than simply financial reward. Vocations can be seen as providing a psychological or spiritual need for the worker, and are often assumed to carry some form of altruistic intent. The term can also be used to describe any occupation for which a person is specifically gifted, and usually implies that the worker has a form of "calling" for the task.

Wheee~* I like! Althought there's a lot a lot of things to learn and it's really tiring...But I like this job! When you're happy in your vocation, it is a vacation! I'm lovin' it!

Jiayou Rae! You can't afford to fall sick! You must shine in your marketplace and at the same time, grow the sheep God has placed under your care! BE STRONG!!!

RaeはMihoさんだいすきですね！

2007-09-13T11:11:00.002+08:00

Haha...I've finally uploaded the photos we took at the airport that day while sending Miho off. She just emailed us to say that she has arrived safely in Hokkaido. I wanna go Japan!!! Someone...somebody...Please feel led to bless me okie??? *Grinz*

Thinking...

2007-09-13T01:03:00.000+08:00

I've been thinking alot ever since SOT ended and hrmm ~ I really thought alot! Hahaha. That's quite a good thing because I've always been lazy to think. SOT has really changed me. (^_^)

Anyway, I've been praying about what to do after SOT and the first natural word that came to my mind is : WORK. Yup ~ Of course...natural...I've graduated and naturally, I need to work! But the question is: WHERE?

This is the question mark over my head for the past few weeks. I've went for 3 interviews so far and sent in many many resumes but somehow, I just feel that something is missing...

I'm currently in a phase of my life which I will call the "crossroad". God! Which way should I turn to?

God spoke last night:

Daniel 10:12
Do not fear, Rae, for from the first day that you set your heart to understand, and to humble yourself before your God, your words were heard; and I have come because of your words.

When I read this verse, my mind flashed back all the way to the days before I registered for SOT. Wow ~ from the first day I set my heart to spend 4.5 months to study the word of God and to forsake my job searching quest, every single prayer I made was heard, and that included prayers made for a job. Like what Nick Vujicic shared on Sunday, "There's a perfection in God's plan, even when He says 'No'."

I'm starting to see it. Yes! ~ I'll be doing it tomorrow...Shall continue praying and see how...

Haha...i guess you are blurred by this entry. Haha. I'll update you when things are 100% confirmed. (^_-)

SOT Graduation - Rejoice!

2007-09-10T11:22:00.001+08:00

SOT - Fought the good fight, Ran the good race

2007-09-04T11:50:00.001+08:00

*Hallelujah!* I've graduated!!! *Cheers!*

This 4.5 month period in SOT is really one that is exciting, challenging, life-changing, capacity stretching, etc etc. Haha. But despite all, God is really good! Time really flies! 4.5 months of waking up at 5.30am every morning, endless assignments, lack of sleep...they've finally ended! Muahahaha ~ But of course, the moving in the Spirit, vibrant praise and worship, equipping of bible knowledge and encounters, fun with the team, will be greatly missed too!

Were there challenges during this period of time? LOADS of it! I have never experienced more spiritual attacks than during this period of time. BUT I know...that since the devil bothers to attack me with thoughts of giving up, depressing thoughts, mood swings, lack in finances, non-stop fever and cough...it simply means that I am so so threatening to him! SO I'm sure he's super discouraged now that I have fought the good fight and ran the good race. HALLELUJAH!

Ha ~ I've not uploaded the graduation photos yet but here is some photos we took during our "last days" in SOT. Haha. The last day of school in Jurong West was really cool! Taking photos and taking more photos ~ Whooooooosh ~

Congratulations Darlings!

2007-08-29T19:48:00.000+08:00

Last Sunday was a happy day! My 6 darlings died and resurrected! I'm so proud of all of them! Was looking through my phone and realized that I didn't take any photo with Shirley Koh and Shireen! *Arghz!* Will wait for Shir to send us the photos so that I can upload soon. (^_^)

Congratulations Celeste Darling!

Congratulations Valerie Darling!

Congratulations Jessica Darling!

Congratulations Isaac Er-Zi!

Haha ~ Hui and I were on the same page that day ~ Flow! Hahaha. Pink Pink ~ For the first time we're in pink and Celeste is in WHITE. Hahahaha. She must be so sad she can't join us. ;p

Isn't this lovely? Haha. Everyone's so pretty! Hahaha.

Yes Vette! I'll pray for your baptism! =)

My all time dearest princess Shirley ~ I love you dearie!

Conference with Dr. Joshua Hong

2007-08-23T00:13:00.000+08:00

The 2-Day session with Dr. Joshua Hong yesterday and today were powerful! He's really a teacher and definitely an anointed one. It's amazing how he can break down the aspects of the 4th Dimensional Spirituality and explains it so well. Frankly speaking, I had to put in a lot of effort to make up what he was saying due to his accent but God's anointing can really transcends language barriers. When someone has the anointing, he carries it wherever he goes. So even if he preaches in a foreign land in a language he's not really good in, the presence of God will still set in during the meeting. The past 2 days were tremendous! Thank You Jesus for sending Dr. Joshua Hong to us.

I was really blessed by the word he shared during the Prayer Meeting at Expo.

Zechariah 4:7
Who are you, O great mountain?
Before Zerubbabel you shall become a plain!

God has spoken and whatever mountain you are facing in your life right now, speak to it and with the authority of the blood that you carry and the anointing of the Holy Spirit, this mountain will become flat and leveled ground before you. I was so so encouraged! Powerful word by a powerful man of God.

Anyway, I'll be graduating from SOT next Sunday. Honestly, I'm sad! Yes ~ I am going to miss the times we had together. Also, I only managed to get to know most of the people more after Batam Emerge, and just when we get to know each other slightly better, we have only less than 2 weeks with each other. *SoBz* Haha..That explains why these few days are like endless photo taking sessions for most of us...

Chengjun: The brother that I will miss seeing around. Haha. After 3 years in NTU and 4.5 months in SOT...after graduation, I'll see less of him. Hey brother ~ all the best! Grow your CG and grow the zone! You can do it ~* NTU Power!

James: My dearest CG brother who's been faithfully helping me take extension, carry bag, buying food, etc. You're really a great pal! Anyway, we were trying to act cute and I realized that James is one head taller than me!

Irene: My dearest prettiest da mei nu! She's just getting more and more and more gorgeous! I love her ~ She's one of those who has been impacting my life.

Lynn: My darling who never fails to help recharge my day. Her enthusiasm is just so so high. She'll be the best spokeswoman for Energizer - never say die. Anyway, I forgot who took this photo for us! We must take another clearer one!!!

Yuzhen: My other da mei nu who really grew me alot. I'm so used to seeing her everyday that I think I will feel weird not seeing her everyday after SOT. Hahaha.

Rio: An Indonesian boy whom I never knew was an Indonesian. Hahaha. He was really of great help in Batam! Thank God for the chance to know him! Charlene says he looks a little bit like Pastor Zhuang. What do you think?

The lovelies in Team 17 ~ First there were only 5 of us...and it attracts....

*Ta-Da!* Hahaha. I love Team 17!

Batam Emerge 2007

2007-08-22T23:50:00.000+08:00

Just realized that I haven't blogged on Batam Emerge!

The pretty girls at Harbourfront Ferry Terminal.

This is my first mission trip and I really enjoyed it! Slept 3 hours for the 3 days & 2 nights that I was there but it was fun, fun and more fun! Thank you May for asking me to serve in Chorusboard. It was huge stress! Hahaha. Thank God for Jon and Alan who did most of the technical stuffs. All I had to do was to hold the talkie and make sure everything is running smoothly throughout the service. Haha. I was telling them through out the whole trip that I really thank God I am called into CG ministry and not chorusboard or any other technical ministries cuz I will most probably die of heart attack. Haha. Once the service commences, it is 100% focus and more focus. *Phew* By God's grace, all 3 sessions went really well and praise God for that! *Hallelujah!*

Got to know 2 lovely people during the trip from the Batam church. Christine and Recky! They are really super nice and capable people.

Christine was the only person doing chorusboard and she does this all by herself every week. Wow! Really power of one! On top of that, heard that most of the members serving in the church have to multi-function. So half way through while we were doing the chorusboard, she had to leave and settle another ministry in another part of the church building. Whoosh! They are a real bunch of flexible people, just so on-the-ball to serve God.

Recky is the guy that juggles all the cameras in the hall. One man show too. Heard from Alan that the talkies they use to communicate over here is very noisy and the two communicating people cannot hear each other very well, especially when service starts. So throughout the whole Emerge, I saw how Recky shouted through the talkie non-stop and at the same time capturing all the best shots on the main screen. He's just so good! Not forgetting, he has a really gorgeous wife, Nana. Didn't have the chance to take a photo with her but she's really beautiful! They have a handsome 2 year old son too! Oh yah ~ and Recky shared with me that whenever CHC has a big day, he will take a ferry down from Batam just to attend it. So he'll be around for our annual Easter, Christmas, FOP, church anniversary, big seminars, etc. People ~ this is the hunger for God's word! If he can sacrifice his rest over the weekend to travel to Singapore from Batam, clearing the customs, etc...I don't see what is so tiring for you to attend CG and service. *Ouch* ;p

Anyway, didn't get to visit Batam this time round but I think that it is really a very nice place! I wanna go back for holidays there! Someone please jio me and if you feel led, you can bless me with the ferry ticket and accomodation. Heard from Jason that the suite at the hotel we stay in is only S$168 per night and it's huge! So yupz ~ Please pray about it ok? Hahahaha.

Say Cheese!

Part of Team 17 at Batam Ferry Terminal

Credits to Zhen Jun ~ The collage is so cute!

Mervyn - The one who contributed greatly to who I am today, and that includes my siao-ness, lameness, insanity, hyperactiveness, etc...

Check out James' Doraemon passport cover! Hahaha. Super cute!

Tired Taka who tried his best to pose for me.

God of My Forever

2007-08-16T23:14:00.001+08:00

It's been some time since I last blogged a proper entry. Frankly speaking, I didn't want to blog today either. Haha. My mind is in a blank...guess it's on standby mode...near hibernation. (^_^) Anyway, this week so far has been a great week for me. It started real cool on Saturday and Sunday when we learned a new worship song, God of My Forever. Check out the lyrics!

GOD OF MY FOREVER
by Gan KC

Verse 1
God of my youth I remember
Your call on my life took me o’er
Your love has seen me through all my days
I stand here by Your grace
On this altar I’ve written my life
Tells of a story I have with You my Lord
I want the world to know

Chorus
God of my forever
And forever I’m with You
My life is saved with a price
Your sacrifice redeemed my soul
God of my forever
And forever I will sing
My greatest honor will always be
To serve my Lord and King

Verse 2
God of my all I’ve surrendered
My heart finds its rest in Your word
Praises will not be enough to show
How my love for You has grown
Nothing matters when You’re here with me
In the end just to hear You say “Well done”
Bowing before Your throne

Bridge
Forever and ever
Jesus You alone in glory reign
Forever and ever
With You I walk this narrow way

This song really brought back many many memories. The ups, the downs, the adventures I've been through with God over the past 7 years as a Christian. Wow ~ Time really flies.

It started with super strong parental objection and how faithful God has remained over all these years. It's really through His grace and His mercy that my parents have kind of accepted the fact that I'm really all for Christ.

Over the years, there are so many of us that grew up in church together. I still recall how we all wore our school uniforms to Hollywood for the Saturday service. Those were the days of parade of school uniforms! Many of us grew stronger, doing great things now for the Lord, but of course, some chose to leave. Tears just can't seem to stop flowing as I start to think of all these dear ones. Didn't we say that we will run this race together? Remember the postcards we wrote to encourage one another? Remember the emails and smses? I sincerely pray, that you will come back. Jesus still loves you!

People may fall and I don't blame them. Nobody's perfect, neither am I. But I am trying my best to be a better person with each passing day. Jesus, I love You! Thank You for remaining faithful all these years. Thank You for teaching me how to love, showing me how to leave my life and assuring me that You are always near. I love You sweet Jesus.

Where's Wally?

2007-08-11T23:49:00.000+08:00

Hallelujah! Where's Wally? Thank You Jesus that "Where's Wally?" was a success! I'm so so grateful and thankful and at ease now ~ Haha.

Thank you Shannen, John, Junhui, Huiwen, YuFen, Jasmine, Isaac and Jasper for participating in the endless conference calls! This would not be possible without you guys!

Thank you Junhui, John and Jasmine (the 3 Js) for sacrificing and being Wallys! The 3 of you rock!!!

Thank you Irene, Suzy and Yuzhen! Your gentleness simply makes us great ~

Thank you W220 and W362 ~ I love all of you!

Anyway, it was a great experience and something that I will hold on to dearly. Learned alot alot ALOT through the planning of this event. *Phew* God is good!

Sabbath Day

2007-08-06T15:50:00.000+08:00

Wheee ~*

Today's my 100% Sabbath day kind of Sabbath Day!

No school today and Mr Chen called to cancel tuition today. Wheee ~* I'm a happy girl! Went out with Mum and Dad earlier in the afternoon just now and had a great time throwing things into the basket in NTUC just now. Haha. And and AND...Mummy bought me 2 pairs of new shoes! Wheee ~* Haha. Am I blessed or am I blessed?! Muahahahaha...

Anyway, I woke up this morning and felt the love of God so tangibly in my room. First sentence that came out from my mouth was, I love You Jesus. Man! This week will be a great great week!

Happy ~*~*~*~*

Rae has graduated!

2007-07-27T15:36:00.000+08:00

24 July 2007 marks the end of Rae's 3 year journey in NTU. Whoosh! Time really flies and there are so many thoughts and so many people I want to thank. Haha ~ I really don't know where to start! Anyway, here are all the photos taken at my Convocation.

My HRC Darlings (Weijing, Gen, Cherie, Priscilla) who have been with me since year 2:

SAC reunion:

My FYP buddies Chengjun & Jimmy:

My 1st year khakee Kangli:

Such a pity we couldnt find Jimmy and Chengjun! If not it will be picture perfect!

Thank you Sze and Lilian:

Other darlings:

The most smiley Professor around in NTU, Prof Templer:

Haha ~ I know that's an overflow of photos for this entry but well ~ a picture paints everything ~ Didn't manage to take photos with many other people...it was a chaotic day. Haha. Nevertheless, I want to thank every single one who has made my days in NTU a memorable one. I love all of you!

Sentosa Fun

2007-07-21T22:37:00.000+08:00

Just came back from Sentosa and it was a whole day of fun! Thank you Kim, JunXiong, James and Vernon for planning the whole event today! The games were really fun! Also, thank God for good weather! Even though it was raining before we went, and there was a slight drizzle on and off, the weather was generally cooling and good!

Anyway, I had a whole load of fun today with my CG. I love W220 and W362! Thank you everyone for making my Saturday so enjoyable. It's been a long long time since I played like this. I am so very happy! *Grinz*

The only mistake made today is...I didn't take photos! Grrr...*Angry!* Haha...Only managed to take 2...

With my darling Kim on the bus to Tanjong Beach ~ We were both in pink! Haha..Pink pink day ~

A very adorable Choon Hui ~

Lalala...Short entry for today. I'm gonna sleep! Only had 2 hours of sleep...*Yawnz*. Nitez people ~

Updates...

2007-07-15T23:01:00.000+08:00

Wow ~ Been a long time since I last blogged. But guys ~ things are still going fine and well for me. I'm still walking under the covering of God and I'm just as blessed as I can be. (^_^) Just check out the following highlights in Rae's life...

My dearest Nicole who is just so so so lovable! *Loves* June was my last service in Nursery and I'm moving on. I will miss my babies!

Junxiong had the PM Cup Challenge on one of those Sundays in July and yah ~ NUS won. Haha. Though I'm not really their ardent fan (NTU rocks!), on account of Junxiong ~ Haha..Go NUS! Anyway, we had a fun time taking photos!

Alexis mei nu ~ I love her smile! So so sweet ~

My dearest ah gim ah ah gim ~ Congratulations on your promotion! I'm so very proud of you! You go girl! *Golemak!*

My dearest Shir ~ It's been some time since we last took a photo together! I love you!

I like this photo! Sweet smilez!!!

And here's small little princess Kim ~ Think I should start a princess club ~ I've so many princesses in my cell group!

July was where Pastor Kong taught Cultural Mandate in SOT. Haha ~ Here are my SOT lovelies dressed up to the mandate...

#1. Chikara Nishida ~ Coolest guitarist ever!

#2. Gail darling. I love you my dearest! The woman of wisdom.

#3. Andy! Power Andy!

#4. Ivan-san! Kakkoii!

#5. Miho san ~ Rae wa Miho ga dai suki desu!

#6. Ozeki Takafumi ~ Cutest boy ever. He's a super cool percussionist!

#7. Yoshimi sen-seh ~ Glory of God shining brighter and brighter through him everyday.

#8. Zhenjun! She is small on the outside but a faith giant on the inside!

Less than 2 months to SOT graduation! Gosh ` That's fast fast FAST! I'm gonna miss all my dear ones especially Yoshi, Taka, Chikara and Miho! Miho darling ~ I'm going to miss you so much!!! But I believe that the 4 of them are going to return to Japan stronger and more anointed. Ganbate!

Yupz ~ These are the updates so far. Oh yah ~ For those who haven't seen me for a while ~ I highlighted my hair! red-violet ~ I like! But a few says I look lian but nevertheless, given my sweet face...cannot lian for long one lah..Hahaha.

I love all of you guys! *HuGz*

Thank you Yingjie

2007-06-27T20:27:00.000+08:00

Ed's taking the photo for us. Thank you Ed!!!

Haha ~ Went out with Yingjie, Kim, Ed, Qin and James today. Yingjie, I'm really happy to see you today! Yeah ~ And as promised...THANK YOU YINGJIE!

Thank you for spending time to fellowship with us today! I really enjoy your company!
Thank you for the yummy McFlurry! Super yummy yummy yummy!
Thank you for always being there for us when we need you!

You're da man bro! Whenever the going gets tough, the tough gets going. We can overcome!

Picture Us!

2007-06-27T19:51:00.000+08:00

Yeah! Many photos! Many many photos we took on Sunday! Credits to Shir Shir ~ Thanx darling!

Ha ~ The Black and White princesses from IC Subzone. *Whoosh!*

I'm blessed ritez? Darling Hern and Shir ~

That's a new leng-zai to my list - Clement ~

Wahaha ~ we really had nothing to do...so we took this at the toilet. Apparently, the cleaner didn't do a good job cuz the mirror is so so dirty!

Girl Power!

Gorgeous ones before the gorgeous river ~

I love them ~ all of them!

My all time favourite Gong Zhu Kim.

My dearest XiaoMin!

I love my CG ~ reallieeee ~

Tell me how not to love them ^_^

Dear God ~ Thank You for such a lovely CG. A CG that loves to fellowship and is learning to love every single one. I pray that we gonna emerge as a united, loving and on fire CG for God.

蜻蜓

2007-06-27T19:17:00.000+08:00

Read this story on 93.3fm's 大头芬的世界 and it's very touching!

那是一個非常寧靜而美麗的小城﹐有一對非常恩愛的戀人﹐他們每天都去海邊看日出﹐晚上去海邊送夕陽﹐每個見過他們的人都向他們投來羨慕的目光…… 　　

可是有一天﹐在一場車禍中﹐女孩不幸受了重傷﹐她靜靜地躺在醫院的病床上﹐幾天幾夜都沒有醒過來。

白天﹐男孩就守在床前不停地呼喚毫無知覺的戀人﹔晚上﹐他就跑到小城的教堂裡向上帝禱告﹐他已經哭乾了眼淚。　　

一個月過去了﹐女孩仍然昏睡著﹐而男孩早已憔悴不堪了﹐但他仍苦苦地支撐著。終於有一天﹐上帝被這個痴情的男孩感動了。於是他決定給這個執著的男孩一個例外。

上帝問他﹕“你願意用自己的生命作為交換嗎﹖”
男孩毫不猶豫地回答﹕“我願意﹗”
上帝說﹕“那好吧﹐我可以讓你的戀人很快醒過來﹐但你要答應化作三年的蜻蜓﹐你願意嗎﹖”
男孩聽了﹐還是堅定地回答道﹕“我願意﹗” 　　

天亮了﹐男孩已經變成了一隻漂亮的蜻蜓﹐他告別了上帝便匆匆地飛到了醫院。女孩真的醒了﹐而且她還在跟身旁的一位醫生交談著什麼﹐可惜他聽不到。　　

幾天後﹐女孩便康復出院了﹐但是她並不快樂。她四處打聽著男孩的下落﹐但沒有人知道男孩究竟去了哪裡。女孩整天不停地尋找著﹐然而早已化身成蜻蜓的男孩卻無時無刻不圍繞在她身邊﹐只是他不會呼喊﹐不會擁抱﹐他只能默默地承受著她的視而不見。

夏天過去了﹐秋天的涼風吹落了樹葉﹐蜻蜓不得不離開這裡。於是他最後一次飛落在女孩的肩上。他想用自己的翅膀撫摸她的臉﹐用細小的嘴來親吻她的額頭﹐然而他弱小的身體還是不足以被她發現。　　

轉眼間﹐春天來了﹐蜻蜓迫不及待地飛回來尋找自己的戀人。然而﹐她那熟悉的身影旁站著一個高大而英俊的男人﹐那一剎那﹐蜻蜓幾乎快從半空中墜落下來。人們講起車禍後女孩病得多麼的嚴重﹐描述著那名男醫生有多麼的善良﹑可愛﹐還描述著他們的愛情有多麼的理所當然﹐當然也描述了女孩已經快樂如從前。　　

蜻蜓傷心極了﹐在接下來的幾天中﹐他常常會看到那個男人帶著自己的戀人在海邊看日出﹐晚上又在海邊看日落﹐而他自己除了偶爾能停落在她的肩上以外﹐什麼也做不了。　　

這一年的夏天特別長﹐蜻蜓每天痛苦地低飛著﹐他已經沒有勇氣接近自己昔日的戀人。她和那男人之間的喃喃細語﹐他和她快樂的笑聲﹐都令他窒息。　　

第三年的夏天﹐蜻蜓已不再常常去看望自己的戀人了。她的肩被男醫生輕擁著﹐臉被男醫生輕輕地吻著﹐根本沒有時間去留意一隻傷心的蜻蜓﹐更沒有心情去懷唸過去。　　

上帝約定的三年期限很快就要到了。就在最後一天﹐蜻蜓昔日的戀人跟那個男醫生舉行了婚禮。　　蜻蜓悄悄地飛進教堂﹐落在上帝的肩膀上﹐他聽到下面的戀人對上帝發誓說﹕我願意﹗他看著那個男醫生把戒指戴到昔日戀人的手上﹐然後看著他們甜蜜地親吻著。蜻蜓流下了傷心的淚水。　　

上帝嘆息著﹕“你後悔了嗎﹖”
蜻蜓擦乾了眼淚﹕“沒有﹗”
上帝又帶著一絲愉悅說﹕“那麼﹐明天你就可以變回你自己了。”
蜻蜓搖了搖頭﹕“就讓我做一輩子蜻蜓吧……”

有些緣份是註定要失去的。愛一個人不一定要擁有﹐但擁有一個人就一定要好好去愛他。

你的肩上有蜻蜓嗎﹖

Such a touching love story! Well ~ Don't think we'll ever be transformed into dragonflies in reality but it does teach us to treasure the people around us and not to take anyone for granted. Amazing story ~

Thank you Rick

2007-06-27T00:47:00.000+08:00

Haha..I'm blogging this entry because I promised my dearest brother that I'll blog an entry just for him. ^_^

Met up with Rick yesterday for lunch and I am so happy! Been wanting to lunch with him since dont know since when and we have to either postpone the lunch or we simply cannot find a time that fits the both of us. Anyway, I;m really proud of Rick! He's looking better and better and Bro ~ that's a lot of hard work on your part! I'm proud of you! ;p

Dearest Rick,
Thank you for being such a great brother all these years. Thank you for the endless flow of energy in you that never fails to encourage me when I'm tired. Thank you for the radiant smile and greetings whenever you see me. Thank you for the "just-in-time" sms-es that you always manage to send at the right time. Most importantly, thank you for this friendship and praying for Soo whenever I need it. Thank you brother!!!

It's not a long entry. =) Just wanna let Rick know that I'm really thankful. ^_^

Oh yah ~ Rick ~ I'm fasting these few days and I'm helping you fast for your "her"! (^;^)

Thank You God

2007-06-25T07:56:00.000+08:00

Woke up this morning and I just feel so blessed. Thank You God for the love You showered me with this morning. ^_^

Daddy drove me to school this morning! Yupz ~ and that really mean alot to me. Travelling from Bedok to Boon Lay is tiring and I didn't have time for the dim sum breakfast he bought. So he decided to let me eat slowly and drive me to school. Yipee!

Went out with my beloved W220 and W362 after service yesterday. Joshua, the intention was to go shopping with you! So sorry that we reached so late and you had to leave. *SoBz* I'm sorry my dearest Josh!!

Anyway, it was fun hanging out with my CG. Took alot alot of photos and i like it! Haha. Actually, I've so much to talk about but realize that it's really hard to blog without pictures. Haha. So forget it ~ Just want to thank God for the many ones that He has placed in my life.

Plus plus: Thank you Xiaomin for joining us at Marina Square! Now that you've your mobile back ~ We can go out more often already! Thank you Huiling for joining us. Didn't get to talk much with to but thank you! Thank you Clement, my new leng-zai! Do join us this weekend again okiez? Enjoy your company and slight lame-ing power. Haha. Can be better. ;p

*Arghz!* I can't stand blog entries without photos! Hahaha....Here are some photos taken last few weeks....

Rae and Kim at Nelson's BBQ ~ Kim's so sweet! Anyway, James is playing extra over here..Grrrr....

Taken with Mummy and Josce at Zhangwei's place. Happy family ~

Hahahaha...I need more photos!!!

I'm really excited about this week! New things are coming up for me and God, it's really by Your Spirit! I'll rely more and more on You! I want to please God, not man.

Okie ~ Gonna get ready for SOT. Take care everyone! =) Rae loves you!

Falling at your feet
As my whole world fades away

...

Abba Father never let me go

Rae can afford to love more.

NTU Ministry

2007-06-11T23:32:00.000+08:00

Thank God I went for NTU Ministry's BBQ yesterday. Was wrestling against flesh and blood when I left Bugis. I was really tired. But thank God I went. Thank God Huiying, Justin and Joelle came to fetch me and I didn't have to walk there! Thank God for the fellowship and I just love NTU ministry! Thank you Julian for availing your house. Thank you Gua for going home with me. Thank you Justin for the ice cream. Thank you Benji for the funny demonstrations with Seema. Thank you XiaoRong for the photos. Etc etc etc.

This pretty girl is Charlotte! One of our NBS alumni ~ Haha. Amazingly, I used to be really scared of her during POS. Anyway, she's just so nice. haha.

My MeiNu XiaoRong! Regardless of her hair length, she's just so pretty! (^_^)

I love this photo! Haha. This is Enyao's super classic face. He's always giving me this face. hahahaha.

I love Ade mama ~

2007-06-05T22:33:00.000+08:00

I finally met up with Ade today! *Happy!* After dragging for many many months ~ We finally got to go out together! Haha. I love you mama! We went to watch Shrek 3 and I love the show! Laughed a lot and please go watch it yah? It's really nice ~

Being king isn't for everyone--especially if you're a prickly ogre who smells like the shallow end of a swamp. When Shrek married Fiona, the last thing he wanted was to rule Far Far Away, but when his frogger-in-law, King Harold, suddenly croaks, Shrek is quickly fitted for the crown. Now, unless the reluctant would-be king can find a suitable replacement, he'll be royally screwed for the rest of his days. As if Shrek didn't have enough on his plate, Princess Fiona has another little surprise on the way. With his head spinning and his belly in knots, Shrek sets off on a quest to find the only other possible heir to the throne, Fiona's long-lost cousin Artie, an underachieving medieval high schooler. While the ogre is away, his old nemesis Prince Charming rears his handsome head and returns to the kingdom of Far Far Away with redemption on his shallow little mind. Even with Donkey and the ever-so-suave Puss in Boots by their side, it's going to take an ogre-sized effort--and a whole lot of help from Fiona and her band of princesses--for Shrek and Artie to save the day and find their own "Happily Ever After."
-- Yahoo!

I love how the princesses "fought". Haha. But was quite disappointed that Cinderella was quite a Bimbo in the show. Hahaha. Anyway ~ Rae gives it 4 out of 5 stars! ^_^ Took many many photos with mama after the movie and it was really funny ~ We took near 20 photos and only the following few were the successful ones. Hahaha.

At the escalator on our way to the carpark. Mummy drove! So so happy and so so proud of her!

And I got my really belated birthday prezzie from mama ~ Mama ~ Thanx for the shades, the necklace and the tiara!!!

I'm finally a princess! haha.

Haha ~ the many many attempts of the tiara with mummy in the car ~ The passer-bys must be thinking that we are mad.

Anyway ~ I really enjoyed myself today. I love you mama! Next trip will be out trip to K-Box Parkway okiez? *Muackz*

By the way, I wanted to post these 2 photos up a few days back but I forgot. Here's a tiny apple that mummy bought home. PS: Rae loves apples!

Ha ~ Can you imagine how tiny it is? It's the same size as turtle!

Considering the size of the apple I usually eat at home (i.e. the right one)...this is tiny! Haha.

Emerge 2007

2007-06-04T13:53:00.000+08:00

Last night marked the end of Emerge 2007. This year's Emerge is very different as compared to the previous years. We prayed alot before every session and God spoke exceptionally alot to me. =) My calling is getting clearer and thank God for that.

The Cultural Mandate * The Great Commandment * The Great Commission.
-- These 3 form the theme of this year's Emerge. Though I've heard the sermon before but something exploded in my spirit every single session. Frankly speaking, I really do not know how to start blogging! All I can say is that I'm really excited! It's gonna be bigger, more challenging and definitely EXPLOSIVE. *Screamz!*

I believe that many of us will emerge into a greater person and more importantly, a stronger army for God. I love You Jesus.

PS: You can dwell and nua there for all you want. We are all moving on. Kindly remember, the whole world doesn't revolve around you alone and we can do our best to help but if you choose not to move, then too bad. Bye!

Arcade fun ~

2007-05-27T20:16:00.000+08:00

Saturday's outing to the arcade with my secondary school darlings was fun! I tried counting and I really cannot recall when was the last time I been to an arcade! Gosh...I'm getting old. Haha. Anyway, it was really fun and thank you darlings for teaching me how to play so many of the games! One thing that caught my 100% attentions were the many many soft-toy catching machines. Hahaha. Irresistably cute! Check it out...

Turtle power!

According to Edmund's little cousin, Amelia (Did I spell the name correctly?), this kitty is called Marie. So gorgeously cute!

"Bring me home!"

Piggies manifesto ~

Pink Stitches! I think Kim will love them.

I love this! Chips and Dales!!!

I was so feverish about Bobdogs during my primary school days. Haha.

Anyway, they are reallieeeeeee cute correct?! Yes ~ I know James would have expected my kind of excitement for this entry. Thanx bro for understanding me so well. ;p

Darling SeowLing ~

Sweetie Val ~

Dearest Xiaogu ~

I had fun and I hope the girls had fun too. Dalphne, Huiling and Xiaomin ~ Hope you gals enjoyed yourselves! Although Xiaomin didn't get to play, I hope she has enjoyed the fellowship. Thank you Val, Seowling, James, JianAn, HuiQin, Hui and Joshua for coming! You people made my day!

Service was great and Pastor completed the 8 Beatitudes. I'm so gonna lay my foundation on these 8 and I want to be a real Christian, conforming to the image of Christ. Emerge's in a few days time and I AM SO EXCITED!!!!!!! Wheee~*

Oh yah ~ I'm supposed to post these few photos up a few weeks back but I forgot...

I just love Kim and Terry. They are just so..."Classical"...

This is from Kim! Abit dark lah..but I love the keychain! Kim ~ I put it on my bag liao! Yeahz!

We had this last Saturday! Thank you Junxiong for blessing us!

Finally!

2007-05-18T21:26:00.000+08:00

*Screamz!* I submitted my first SOT assignment today! *Hallelujah!* It's the first time in my life that I stayed up the whole night just to chiong assignment. Haha. I can't recall myself being so serious about assignment deadlines...not in NTU, not in TPJC, never! Haha. But God is really good. Thank God for His strength! Officially finished my assignment at 5.45am this morning and had to rush to prepare myself for lessons. Thank God and thank you Ivan! Haha. Thanx for helping me to print out my assignment and thank you for your entertainment! From this first SOT assignment, the revelation is: DON'T DELAY! Haha. I must be more faithful to do my assignments in future. No more last minute work!

Anyway, SOT has really opened my mind and heart to God. I've learned so much and God is really good. Ha. Before I blogged, I was thinking of all the things that I wanted to blog about! Man ~ I forgot everything! Hahahahha. Aiyoyo ~ Blur blur me... *Arghz!*

Alright..shall just list down what I typed out on the train in my phone a few days ago. The 10 things I am looking out for in a guy ~ Ha. Before I continue, NO. Rae is not interested to get into a relationship now..perhaps not even this year. But I just thought about the 10 things that I am looking out for because I was talking to Shan and Ivan about this topic a few weeks back and they have all set theirs. Ha. My dear Joelle will know that the two of us are supposed to set this list long long ago but we always forget. So yupz ~ Decided to jot it down on the train the other day since I was bored bored bored on the train. So here goes....

He should be someone who:

1. Loves God more than He loves me. ~ I realize that this point is in everyone's list but sometimes, emotions will just overwhelm us and people will overlook this point. If not, they will choose to think that the person really loves God more than he/she loves her/him. I've made a decision. I won't compromise on this. =)

2. Has a vision for himself and for our relationship. ~ Without a vision, people perish. Similarly, a relationship with a vision won't be lasting.

3. Is spiritually stronger than me and must be able to lead me and tell me when I need to change. ~ Hrmm...think Rae's a traditional woman. I believe that the man should be the head of the household, the relationship. I'll submit as long as it is in line with what God says.

4. Has a heart for missions. ~ I love China and now, Japan too! So, hopefully he will have the same heart for missions as me.

5. Is able to flow with me and we must enjoy each other's company. ~ Given my level of erm..."lamity?", he needs a big heart to take it. Hahaha.

6. Loves my family and of course, I will love his too. ~ The next relationship will definitely be my last. So, I got to choose wisely. And since it'll be my last, he must love my family and I must love his too. We'll be seeing each other's family for the rest of our lives sia ~

7. Will make the effort to remember and do something on special days. ~ I'm not talking about big creative celebrations. ~ Quality time is my love language. Hrmm..some guys love to think that girls want big romantic ways to celebrate ocassions like V-Day, anniversary, etc. Well ~ for me, it's really the thought that counts. As long as there's effort put into remembering and making time for the occasion, even a simple dinner will satisfy me.

8. Knows how to dress himself up, especially the hair! ~ Ha. I always feel that when someone dresses up, he's showing respect for himself and the person whom he's going out with. What's more...it is our responsibility to look sharp for God.

9. Exercises manhood - holding the door, letting the lady board the bus first, helping with bags, etc. ~ This is a must. I don't want to end up teaching my boyfriend how to be a man. I will die....

10. I can't think of the 10th point actually. Haha. I seriously wonder how Shan, Ivan and most of my other friends can write 10 over points. Anyway, my temporary last point will be...It'll be good if he has a car! *Wahahahaha* A plane will be acceptable too. ;p

Serving Others

2007-05-13T00:20:00.000+08:00

Meekness is demonstrated by serving others. I wasn’t able to listen to the sermon today properly because I was serving in the Nursery but thank God for Sally who allowed me to write down my sermon notes outside the Nursery. Anyway, I was very blessed by Sally today. She’s our Service I/C and despite her being a leader, she was so willing to humble herself to serve me (just an ordinary team helpr)! I was sitting outside the Nursery and knowing that I rushed down from CG,

Sally: Hey SooChin, 吃饱了吗？
Rae: Erm…not yet but…(before I could finish my sentence…)
Sally: 我有买curry puffs leh! I take for you ok?
Rae: Sally, don’t need..it’s alright.
Sally: Nono…it’s ok. I take for you hor?
Rae: Ok..thanx.
Sally: You want drink something hot? Here very cold.
Rae: Orh…I go make coffee later…
Sally: Don’t need don’t need…I make for you.
Rae: Har? Don’t need lah…I can do it myself…
Sally: Don’t don’t. You sit and listen to the sermon. I go make for you.

And she went off to make coffee after that. Gosh ~ I was so touched I teared! Ok ~ I know I am good at crying but I was really moved! She doesn’t have to do that you know? But she was so eager to serve!

At that moment, I thought to myself. “God, I want to serve You. I pray that I will never come to a point where I will feel that serving You and Your people has become a chore. I love You and because I love You, I want to serve You and Your people.”

Was wrapping some gifts for some people just now and just felt like listening to Sun's albums. First, was listening to Sunday and the presence of God just set into my room. I could felt the love of God so strongly. Now, I'm listening to Sun with Love. I love this album! Anyway, even as I am listening to it right now, many many thoughts came to mind. How I first came to church, felt the love that I've never experienced before, went through many ups and downs, He saw me through it all, loving God, stronger everyday, growing... and wow ~ 7 years! Amazing ~

As these flashbacks play in my mind, the only concluding statement is as such: My God is an awesome God. No matter what happened, He was there and He is here right now. Thank God I serve a living God whom I can experience personally. I'm so in love with my Lord Jesus.

有你就够了 - SUN

如果此刻突然有泪水想往下滑
我想恐怕没机会路过脸颊
悲伤有你来安慰
泪有你为我擦
如果眼前有整个世界的繁华
我想恐怕我什么也不拿
因为生命一样都不缺乏都不缺乏

还要什么有你就够了
我的一切是你给的
还要什么爱你就够了
人潮中多难得
两个人对彼此做选择

爱你我再也不害怕
有你曾说的每句话
是你感应我所有回答

Go Away in Jesus' Name!

2007-05-08T09:10:00.000+08:00

I had a fantastic weekend learning about the Sermon on the Mount. Impacted, transformed and a thorough renewal of the mind. *HALLELUJAH!* Blessed are the poor in Spirit and Blessed are those who mourn. *WHOOSH!* I love this and I am loving it! Can't stop feeling excited!!! I really hope many of you caught this message because this is so so precious! If you don't understand, do come to me alright? I'll be explaining to Kim and Adrin ~ if you need help ~ we can do it all together. Let's be all fired up for God and be a true Christian alright?

Pastor Kong is finally back after 9 weeks of mission. As Pastor was giving the praise report of Taiwan, my heart was beating so fast.
God : Before China, why don't you go Taiwan first this year?
Me : Ok. I will go!

After Taiwan's report, Pastor shared the praise report done in Japan, Fukouka Harvest Church, i.e. the church Taka and Chikara comes from. Wow! My heart was beating so fast I teared!
God : How about Japan? Why not make it 2 this year?
Me : God, I got no money! But I will save...if that's your will, I will go.

Yes my dears ~ I'm targetting for 2 mission trips this year and I need MONEY! Please pray for me alright? A few weeks ago, Miho asked me, "Rae-san, why do you take Nihongo?" I was quite stunned by this question because I thought I will have a very definite answer, i.e. "I like Japanese songs and I want to sing them by looking at the hiragana, katana and kanji, instead of the romanji." Anyway, I did reply her this way, but after that, I just felt in my heart that this doesn't seem to be the real reason. I decided not to think about it..anyway, it's just a casual question and a casual conversation. But on Sunday, God showed me that nothing is too casual for God to work in. "You took Japanese because you are going. Learn it and learn it well!" I cried...non-stop. I love the way God works. Really amazing ~

Anyway, I'm down with high fever for the past 3 days..37.6 then 38.4 and it was at 39.4 degree last night and I had to go see my family doctor. She suspects that it might be dengue fever cuz I do have some mosquito bites on me. So ~ I'm supposed to stay home and rest to see if the fever will subside. If it doesn't, then I have to go back on Friday for a blood test. When I woke up this morning, checked my temperature and it's at 36.4! Praise God! I pray that it will not recur..this lousy fever has been recurring for many days. I hate it! It badly slows my efficiency! Grrrr.... Anyway, I know that the fall in temperature is all to the credit of God Jehovah Rapha and my lovely angels, W220 and W362 and my dearest SOT team 17. Thank you all who prayed for me! I'm so blessed! Feel like a princess again .... =) Was very weak last night..so I didn't reply many smses sent to me. But thank you ALL who messaged me!

Special thanks to James who is so readily to take my 2 Lavender kids for me. Thank you Meiqi for understanding and letting me take a rest from teaching Marcus. Thank you so much my dear girl!

てんの　お父さま (Dear heavenly Father) ~ I want to serve You more and I want to love You with my entire being. Sorry for not taking good care of myself ~ I will take care of myself and be responsible for this temple where the Holy Spirit resides in. =) Amen.

The Synergy of W220 & W362

2007-05-04T00:17:00.000+08:00

Wasn't feeling very well today but thank God for all the angels He placed around me that prayed for me tonight. Thank you James, thank you Terry, thank you Kim, thank you Hui ~ Thank you Huiling, Isaac, Ivan, Weizhen, Yingjie, for your sweet messages and msn greetings. I feel like a princess today (ermz..actually everyday..hahaha). Anyway, I'm feeling much better now. Thank God for the healing and thank God for the prayers! Thank God that He is Jehovah Rapha, my Doctor, who heals every sickness and every disease.

Here are some of the photos we took on Family Day ~ Quite a pity that not everyone was around..if not it's going to be a great reunion! Nevertheless, I love W220 and W362! Jiahui, Yuzhen, Terry, Isaac, Huiling, Junjie, Hern, "Shirley"s, Sengchong, Edmund, Aunty Ruby, Yingjie, Valerie, James, Ivan, Eric, Junxiong, Junxing, Huiqin, Kim, Joshua, JianAn, Kyel, Kenneth, Zheming, Seolwing, Weizhen, Ronald, Shaun, LeongHwee, Adrin, Frank, Daniel, Oswin, Peijun, Peiqing, Shireen, Xiaomin, Yufeng, Alicia, Edwin, etc etc....I love all of you! Thank God for every single one of you!

Yuzhen looks great in this photo rite?! That's Alicia in black ~ Our new addition to the ultra happy family ~ She loves Japan! Yeah! Someone who can flow with me!

That's Junxiong (I'm still waiting for the chance to take Junjie's photo!), Kim, Weizhen and SengChong ~ Ha ~ SC was trying to look more funky ~

The hottest Hern ~ I love you dearie!

My two darling girls ~ Kim and Zhen ~ with their ermz...mummy Junxiong?

Kim looks so cute here!

Check out my dearest Xiaogu ~ I'm so blessed to be re-united with her ~ Hahaha.

Another family photo? Ha ~ Adrin didn't want to show his teeth ~ Well....I respect his decision.

CLASSIC! When Kim meets Terry ~

My dearest Kyel ~

*Ta-Da* ~ End of family day ~

This is one of my Japanese team mates in SOT ~ O**** Takafumi ~ I love Japanese names! So cool!

Mountain Moving

2007-04-29T17:14:00.000+08:00

Service with Rev. Kenneth Hagin Jr. was marvellous! He shared on how to conquer mountains and that really moved me. The mountains (i.e. problems, difficulties, obstacles, etc) in our lives cannot get any bigger but we can! Hence, there is no mountain too huge to be cast away. Junxiong shared about being proactive and reactive yesterday during CG and today, Pastor re-emphasized that the time to conquer our mountains is when everything is going great. We got to be proactive so that the devil will not take us by surprise! I am committed to speaking the Word of God!

God says it, I believe it and that settles it! Amen!

Went for fellowship after service today at our usual hangout, the Coffee Bean, and it was another time of fun and laughter. ;p Hern, thanx for the mango frost! It tastes so heavenly! After some of them left for BS, make-up CG and PM, the rest of us started taking photos. Haha..

Pretty Weizhen ~ Doesn't she look like Joanne Peh? Anyway, she looks so much prettier in real life! *HuGz*

Ivan's friend, Yvette, who joined us today. Thanx for coming my dear! So blessed to have the chance to know you! Anyway, in case you are wondering who's at the back...that's Joshua.

Yesh ~ Joshua ~ My bag and SOT books bearer for today. Thank you Bro! Study hard for your exams!

Twin Towers ~ Edwin and Terry ~

Oh well ~ Handsome Isaac refuses to open his eyes. Just make do with it alright?

I was supposed to be hit but Terry volunteered. Haha ~

Prettiest mei nu in my CG! Huiling ~

My leng zai Ivan who for dunno what reason is so scared of me and doesn't want to stand close...=( Anyway, he's a really nice guy! Both yuzhen and I agree that he's a really kind boy ~

See! Ivan doesn't like me...Haha. Anyway, that's my another leng zai - Ronald. There's Junxing with the super comical smile ~

Yeah ~ the ah boy who's called ah boy because he doesn't look like ah girl to me. Okie..think only he and i can understand this. Anyway, Bro ~ Congratz on your completion of your exams! I wanna take one photo with Junjie and Junxiong! Haha ~ They're twins!

This is Desmond. Our "guest" member. Do join us more often alright?!

Dearest guitarist Addy ~ Hey Addy ~ I believe that you will do so well and be a great blessing to your members in your new CG! All the best!!!

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